tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70266444400539481212024-03-05T11:05:41.551-08:00kbear's heart again..kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.comBlogger769125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-17430607098378211132009-12-27T17:45:00.000-08:002009-12-27T17:54:27.859-08:00still learning...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmIqJqFPq2b3m6YwN-61H7IO3bnycPHbV0oU-GHA_9NtFUFjsoqXYwQU5RjmGV3Dv7cssCLp50RSDcyWeQl4VcoN_DSXI91sYoLGcoXhX0x3wB0-AUot_MXeL_n9eeVMboHiFvUq1HYGJZ/s1600-h/Xmas+lights+006.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 266px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmIqJqFPq2b3m6YwN-61H7IO3bnycPHbV0oU-GHA_9NtFUFjsoqXYwQU5RjmGV3Dv7cssCLp50RSDcyWeQl4VcoN_DSXI91sYoLGcoXhX0x3wB0-AUot_MXeL_n9eeVMboHiFvUq1HYGJZ/s400/Xmas+lights+006.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5420097701418645026" border="0" /></a><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">so I went on another adventure to shoot lights...I'm still learning...maybe it wasn't so much the unipod the other night as possibly the shutter speed needs adjusting. i used the tripod tonight and still it was blurry a bit. for knot really ever doing it before, this is a great learning experience. the tripod i have is a cheap one for backpacking. not the strongest or sturdiest, but will remedy that this next year with a real bonafide tripod. anyways, maybe this Wednesday while near the church, i'll try again with a lower shutter speed. it's still fun doing it regardless of the outcome. i would have experimented tonight, but it's damn cold out there right now. for days it's only been in the 20s. just wasn't up to dealing with the cold tonight. will try different shutter speeds on Wednesday. what few lighted houses I've seen, they're beautiful. haven't been out much especially at night right now. it's nice to be home in the evening for a change. usually working....and for now, all spare time I'm basically spending at home chillin' with a book. so Life is Good right now. now off for sum more football-the events for today....</span>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-53205022919280637082008-10-01T22:18:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.609-07:00last nite!<P><FONT size=4>tonite was the last nite the last nite at the store i sit here chillin with a beer in hand the nite went pretty fast until about 8pm or just before then it died to nothing and no one coming in the store i didn't do much except run the register i let the other woman do most of the duties for once besides payback can be a bitch she didn't do anything but run the register the last time we worked together anyways, it's OVER!!! YEAH!!! i'll wash the smocks and return them didn't get a chance to say goodbye to the boss either, so will do that too i was in a grumpy mood before i got there just didn't want to deal with more bs tonite i had finally had enough of it..so now onto better things and hopefully i wont ever have to return to another convenience store again!!!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>now, back to this journal not happy about the move, but it's better than no place at all after they close down these journals the new blog isn't the same, but at least i have a new blog tonite i've been playin with Photobucket in hopes to make a slide show on my new blog will see in a bit here i like the new look of the new blog, but haven't been able to do as much..yet.. on the new blog as here still gotta figure out adding photos other than as they have it Robin figured it out, i'll figure it out she's managed to post more than one photo at a time and have the words wrap around the pics nice display i want to figure that out too we don't have the display options as we do here in aol journal, where we can post as many photos as we want and have them showing via Ken Burns, photo pile, collage, etc. i'll miss that option for sure but maybe if i get the slide show down on the new blog, that may be of help too....anyways, change is good whether we like it or not....well for now, i only have a few more entries here, then i'm permanently over on the new blog i have yet to decide whether to save this journal into the new blogspot i'll decide once i get the info on how to do it this has been a journey in journaling i rarely go back to my journal pages, here on in my hand written journal books i have here at the house, and read them so anyways, i'll decide laterz...until another moment in time...visit me at my new blog (link in previous entry...)</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-8293990124554415922008-09-30T16:39:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.609-07:00hi again<P><FONT size=4>ok, i've made a new blog thanks to Indigo creating hers first from there i created myself a new journal you can do the same once you reach my page it ain't like AOL but it'll work to stay in touch with all my j-land friends here's the link: <A href="http://karebear4x4.blogspot.com/">http://karebear4x4.blogspot.com/</A></FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>at the top of the page is a link, Create Blog, from which you can make a new journal i hope all my j-land friends do so here or somewhere and leave me a link to your new journal if you choose to let go of journaling, i honor and understand that i'm still fine tuning my new blog a bit somewhere i can list the new blogs to keep track of, but couldn't find that page a moment ago right now AOL is screwing up again on responding anyways, this weekend after the Balloon Fiesta, i will post all those pics here, then move onto the new blog so far as it appears, i'll be only to post one photo at a time on the new blog well that means a lot of entries to post my photos, but so be it so anyways, my friends hope to see you soon and don't forget to leave me your new blog place link....hugz</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>p.s. i dont know that the new blog has "alerts" to let me know when you post, but i'll keep up with them daily as much as possible...</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-91078900246879199042008-09-30T07:23:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.610-07:00closing us down<FONT size=4>ok, i JUST read Jeannette Jottings-see sidebar- she let us know they're shutting down aol journals as i got onto my journal, there at the top of the page is the announcement i have yet to learn how to save this or where to go from here, but this pisses me off...anyone else know anything about this? have you heard? ...i'll get back to you with what i learn today...hugz</FONT>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-64171982697611473912008-09-28T21:52:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.611-07:00overtime<P><FONT size=4>ok it's sunday nite after work i worked 2 1/2hrs OT at the store today unexpectedly first i got there a half hour early just so i could run next door to Ruben's Grill for a burrito before beginning at noon well Jim my boss called as i was walking in the door he needed me to run an errand for the store he told me to go ahead and clock in before doing it and so i did well as the scheduled day came to a close, one woman walked out the door 5mins before i was to clock out she was having a very rough day and asked me to stay seeing her visibly shaken and the fact she filled in for me last weekend when i came home, i stayed another two hours just for her i'm worried about her she is the one i enjoy working with despite her foul language all the time and i shouldn't complain about that for i've had my moments of doing the same anyways, i'll check on her tomorrow i hope she is ok....in the meantime, this woman gave me some sad news today just a few days ago an old building down the street from the store, a block away, burned down i saw it burning that night on my way home from work well she told me that 5 homeless people died in that fire we immediately thought about our guys we used to have we wonder whether they were some of the victims we have no way of knowing at this point but it seems likely, or so we think maybe one day we'll know for sure what happened to those 2 homeless guys that used to hang around our store God bless them all.....now, i'm totally exhausted i'm just finishing my milk and heading to bed it's been a good day really i've enjoyed myself today working with my co-worker it was just longer than i thought it wood be It's all good give a little recieve a little....</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-66053466190417081352008-09-28T06:19:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.611-07:00sunday mornin...<P><FONT size=4>a short note i only have 3 workin days at the store YEAH!!! today, tomorrow and wednesday i couldn't be happier it was another sad workin day yesterday another day of where i was the only one doing the duties it's OLD!!! anyways today will be a bit better for i work with the other woman that actually works she's a lot of fun aside from her foul mouth it'll go by quickly:-)</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>now on for some better news next weekend is the beginning of the Balloon Fiesta i'm going probably on sunday friday nite i start work at the church and will be there til 10pm or after so it'll be too early to rise i think for the Fiesta on saturday morn anyways, i'm anxious for the Fiesta to take photos i'll post them asap....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>in the meantime, i began reading <EM>The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch</EM> yesterday my mentor Rev Jennie (or just Jennie) recommended it to me so i'll let you know about the book soon too has anyone else read it yet?</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>have a wonderful sunday!</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-38138386496497835182008-09-26T20:21:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.612-07:00i sat down..<P><FONT size=4>well i came over to the computer and sat down i sat too long now i don't want to do anything except maybe go to bed i was tidying up around here still may clean the bathroom before hittin the sack anyways, i noticed as i was cleaning that i'm sure bored with it no wonder i don't do it as often as i "should" i've been cleaning house since i was 10yrs old think 40yrs of it is enough...lol once i win the lottery i'll get a maid...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>so, today was a good day i've been off from the store for 2days in a row YAY!!! i stopped by the church to see Marsha first thing this morn and asked her to lunch for like the 4th time this week she reminded me about the potluck on fridays i had totally forgotten about it since i haven't been able to be there for like over a month now well off i went and got chicken the price of it was up a whole dollar goodness everything has gotten to be soooo expensive $7 for a roasted chicken i could buy a meal almost with that at least i'd have veggies to go with that anyways, the economy sucks right now and i'm not crazy about the bailout the govt wants to do with these companys and banks when do they bail us out of such situations we always got to pay the penalty, why not these people and so is my thinking at the moment...anyways, on with my day after the potluck with cake, i headed over to Jen's office to work a couple hours i drag ass there sometimes just because i want to be elsewhere, but it only takes 2-3hrs to do the work i think it's because i've done office work before really dont want to do it again and this stuff is tedious and menial i know it plays an important role in her scheme of things, but just don't want to do it however i'm honoring my word to assist her and i get to chat with her more often nowadays because of it she's a great friend and mentor so i really have no complaints....so after that i headed home and took a nap while waiting on Marsha to call we were going to a movie, but she had an important date with her daughter so, anyways, home i came and i started tidying up as i said put the football game on-muted turned the radio on and started jamming i got a couple things done before teetering out so here i sit, chattin with Jorje while writing this but i'll need to get off here soon i'm ready for the sack it's been a day tomorrow it's back to work...</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-9226089808655272152008-09-23T20:15:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.612-07:00fall is officially here...<IMG class=largeThumbnail id=largeImg height=311 alt="" src="http://shutter14.pictures.aol.com/data/pictures/06/001/34/FF/BD/E6/qYYBFwAp1zRrO9LWIFTS4A2dttXNrDMZ0300.jpg" width=206/> <FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>alas, fall is here!!! and boy does it feel good i'm lovin the fresh cool air right now i even bought me a flannel shirt at the VA Hospital store light weight, but i'm ready for my flannels anyways, this entry is about my appointment today for my cataract surgery is set for Nov 3rd is that the day before the election? hmmm, i wonder i'll find out soon i have no clue at the moment when exactly the election date is...anyways, the appointment went well another female doctor i don't know if they set it up that way, but it's kewl by me all my doctors and my therapist are women i love supporting women in their careers so, Dr. Bogga (i think this is how she spelled it) told me that i don't have any options but surgery my percentage of complications increased by 5% due to she really believes this is from the black eye i got when i was a teenager because normally it's both eyes that have cataracts, not just one like mine and this is the eye the guy hit so many years ago makes sense to me she did say i'll need bifocals permanently from here on out well i sorta knew that already just because i can't read a damn thing without glasses they'll also fit me for prescriptions for the slight far-sightedness i have too so i wonder, should i just go back to wearing my glasses all day again as i did delivering mail time will tell i do know i like to take a break from wearing glasses all day so anyways, it's all good i'm anxious to get this done and over with and nervous about it too either Marsha or Maggie will be accompanying me for the surgery we may have to be there as early as 5:30am i may just volunteer for that time to get it done and over with besides maybe i can just sleep thru the surgery since it'll be so early in the morn...anyways, that's the latest for me i'll keep you posted on this when pre-op gets here and the other appointments for it those will be next month in the meantime, i'm relaxing with a beer i see Rev Jennie tomorrow, my friend and mentor, for a practitioners session so i can discuss a few things then she'll do a prayer treatment for me i have tons to discuss and if i didn't have to work tomorrow, i'd take all afternoon but we only have an hour and will squeeze in everything we can...one topic for discussion is Jesse's departure after yesterday, Sandy thinks he may have a collapsed lung i told her today that he's going to be busy doing something and make his transition standing or sitting up she said that would make him happy i can't blame him there he keeps goin despite the pain, which i admire he's got to do this his way and we are honoring that God bless him he's a pretty wonderful character!</FONT>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-41036038553461490002008-09-22T21:38:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.613-07:001 down..5 to go<FONT size=4>ok i just wanna bitch a little first it's 10:30pm and i <EM>just </EM>took my meds for the night that means i'm up til 1 or 2 in the morn again dammit and so what is my bitch work but 1 nite down, 5 more workin nites to go it'll go by fast, but i'm not sure fast enough tonite i worked with another woman i heard rumor she was not of the workin kind well she lived up to the rumor for sure then on top of that, bitchy customers n the store i realized recently this is like an abusive relationship this was the final reason for deciding to get the job at church i mean customers come in with the bitchiest mood and just dump on you and i gotta stand there and take it? NO THANK YOU!!! i swear i get bitchier every time i work there nowadays and if it's not the customers using foul language quite often, it's my fellow co-workers cursin' up a storm themselves ok, i didn't even have this at the p.o. we didnt' allow it not only did management not allow it, but we co-workers would not allow our peers to get out of hand we'd hush it out before the person got carried away i've noticed for a month now how my own attitudes have deteriorated how i've been cursin more than usual..and i don't curse but once in a blue moon...i also want to drink beer more often myself smoke more i'm easily irritated and on and on and so forth you get the picture so for my well being, i'm headed to the church thank goodness!!!....so enough is enough of abusive customers and fellow co-workers it's the pits!!! ok, first thing in the morn i'm goin hikin' it's been a few weeks and i pray the fresh air cleans out my head from all this drama at the store they don't pay me enough to stay there and i doubt there'd be enough money to keep me, except maybe a million dollars annually...lol so anyways, thank j-land friends for lettin me get this crap off my chest!</FONT>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-71925206673709007092008-09-21T20:42:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.613-07:00sunday nite<FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>
<P>Listen to the Exhortation of the Dawn!<BR/>Look to this Day!<BR/>For it is Life, the very Life of Life.<BR/>In its brief course lie all the <BR/>Verities and Realities of your Existence.<BR/>The Bliss of Growth,<BR/>The Glory of Action,<BR/>The Splendor of Beauty;<BR/>For Yesterday is but a Dream,<BR/>And To-morrow is only a Vision;<BR/>But To-day well lived makes <BR/>Every Yesterday a Dream of Happiness,<BR/>And every Tomorrow a Vision of Hope.<BR/>Look well therefore to this Day!<BR/>Such is the Salutation of the Dawn! <EM>-Kalidasa</EM></P>
<P>well i sit eatin' my ice cream chocolate always does the body good:-) it's been a busy short day, although i would have liked to lounge around as i did yesterday yesterday just before i went to work, i got nauseated-ugh thought sure i was goin' 2 lose my lunch i got 2 work stayed 15-20mins and left too much stress for the week just couldn't hang being there so i came home laid down on the couch and was out like a light once i woke, i just vegged in front of the tv i felt better, but not that much better..then i slept for 12hrs last nite, waking at 10:30 this morn goodness hadn't done that in a very long time, or so it seems just too busy this week need to chill out again and take it easy</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>anyways, so once awake this morn and after the mornin brew, i hooked up with Marsha we had lunch then off we went to Wally World to shop for things like toilettries and dog food we also found Halloween t-shirts for Madison i bought the shirt, she bought pants to match we're both missing Madison badly right now needless to say, Diana moved out of Marsha's house and of course taking Madison with her I know it's harder on Marsha right now, but i sure do miss Madison....anyways, it was a fun time shoppin...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>so then it was off to a bbq with Jesse....the original plan today was to shampoo my carpet and spend time with Jesse needless to say, the carpet got put on hold for a couple more days.....so off Jesse and i went to my brother Stephen's bbq he invited me last nite it was an opportunity for me to get out and return his bicycle to him at the same time i figured i needed to relax among people for awhile well we get there and i soon remembered that if i don't know people in a social setting, i don't talk much even Jesse asked if i had fell asleep i knew a few people, but just wasn't into striking up a conversation much it's been awhile since i've been out meeting new people i'm fine among my own friends, but strangers are a different story except at church i know, go figure guess it wasn't in my comfort zone we only stayed a couple hours the cool desert air was coming in and i started to get the sniffles again i forgot to take a light jacket or sweatshirt Stephen loaned me his, but it was too small anyways, so i took Jesse home...now a note i did take my camera to take Jesse's pic, but forgot about it until it was dark outside Stephen didn't have enough lighting and Jesse is Creole with the appearance of a black man he would not have shown up in the photos so another day i'll get his photo and post here....hmmm, maybe i'm just into hanging with my close friends nowadays, in lieu of meeting a lot of new people i heard that's what we do as we grow older could be time will tell it was a good day anyways i'm just feelin tired from workin' so much that too will becoming to a close just another week, maybe a half too, then i'm off to the church but' the extra hours is paying off to make the transition in jobs much easier financially It's all good just really learning what i can and can't do anymore..... </FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-32684745225232263182008-09-18T21:20:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.614-07:00cool nite<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#000099 size=4>thursday nite just got home from class it's prac preview 3 classes of it, then we actually start the class it's a good class interesting to say the least it challenges my thinking regarding "spiritual knowledge" but this is Science of Mind, our philosophy at our church the class will be a challenge for me and i like challenges before i go to bed i need to dig out some old notes from a previous class just to refresh myself on spiritual mind treatment (our affirmative prayer technique) as i sat in class, i asked myself do i really want to do this whether i want to or not, i'm doin' it it's 36weeks long minus 3 holidays and i'm in it for the long haul anyways, interestin'...right now i'm questioning but that's the norm for me i question until i know the truth for me it's all good</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#000099 size=4>in the meantime, before too long i will no longer have to deal with beer runs at the store i've got the job at the church beginning the first of October i do training for it next week sometime it'll be good or at least i hope so i am anxious to leave the store although one small improvement has been made lately well maybe i shouldn't call it an improvement considering the boss put the order out to stop selling alcohol to the homeless man that only comes in to buy his Importers Vodka daily it's in hope he'll move on the boss also called the cops on the other homeless guy and he's no longer allowed near the store he's gone he was really no problem to me but for some unknown reason to me the boss got tired of him too i pray one day these two guys, and all homeless people, find their way to a better life...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#000099 size=4>now an update on Jesse he appears to be gettin weaker he keeps pushing himself to get up and get goin he doesn't want to be bound to the bed for he knows once he does that, it's all over he's fightin it in my perception which is understandable i just don't know how much of a fight he has left he did see a kineasology (sp?) doctor today and got some other herbal medication to help let's see what happens from there gotta see him soon i was hopin to see him today, but it just didn't come together he didn't sound too good when i first spoke with him, but as the day progress his spirit was up he's got one hell of a strong will who knows how much longer he'll will himself to live he's last much longer than anyone expect who knows he could pull out a miracle i've been strugglin with the fact he'll be gone sometime soon i know only his body dies and he moves on to another of God's mansions but it doesn't make it any easier sayin good-bye he's been a blessing to me these past few months he's done me a lot of good just hanging out with him a little healing of my soul and helpin me face my own fear of death my views of life arent' the same as they used to be, but i haven't totally gotten to the greener pastures Bless Jesse for the gift he is to me...</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-87928349781728422642008-09-15T18:54:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.614-07:00cars..cars..and more cars<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4>extending my birthday today or so it seems...first here are the photos i took yesterday didn't realize i had taken 50 photos before the battery died there's plenty of cars but there's a couple extra of baby goats, shetland ponies, another pheasant, colorful hat and whatever else i shot i really enjoyed these cars they're all beautiful of course i'm partial to the trucks i did fall in love with one of the Dodge cars i think it was a 38, beige and a bit brown coloring anyways, i was in the middle of shooting the animals when the battery died so maybe this sunday i'll be back out there for other photos i had wanted to shoot it was a bit of fun while it lasted tho it just wasn't meant to be for the entire day yesterday...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4>so anyways, i go to lunch with Marsha today that was very pleasant today and she brought me my birthday present it is a wind chime i had mentioned months ago that she could get me one i've always wanted one and just haven't ever gotten around to buying one, or more she bought one with a sun on it since she remembered my days of rising for the sunrise haven't done that lately, but i'll be back to doin that again from time to time she was in good spirits today one thing i love about Marsha is her sense of humor although she hasn't heard from her daughter since the fight, she was being humorous about the situation today bouncing back to her real self despite it being painful for her we had a good chat about what happened in time her daughter will come around and she knows this it's all good...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4>then i went to my doctor's appointment today just an annual physical check up i'm good except maybe my cholesterol is still up since my weight is still up she didn't give me a lecture, but she did discuss exercise and diet again later this week i'll do blood work to know my cholesterol if it's the same or worse, she put me on medication for it otherwise it's back to my exercising which i want to do anyways not only for the health of it again, i love doing it and to start NOW to prepare for my Grand Canyon trip again next year...which by the way i talked to George the other day he's finally starting to realize this isn't any easy trek he's going to be on and that he's way out of shape for it now i'll wait and see if he follows thru...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4>now, when i got home from the doc, after running an errand for Marsha, i picked up my mail from the box only to find a package there from my sister she too said she was sending a card well i got a package with all kinds of stuff in it it definitely was a surprise got pencils, notepad, and a couple of calendars-one a mouse pad, the other pocket calendar with puppies on it i also got 2 shirts i laughed and had to call Marsha she knows i have a thing for shirts i buy them ALL the time well my sis sent me not one, but two shirts from disney i love 'em it was a great present..o yes, she sent me some chocolate too:-)....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4>well then, i proceeded to do my dishes i was determined to get some house chores done today so i did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen except for mopping the floor i then called Jesse for he mentioned earlier today he wanted to do something tonite i didnt get a hold of him and he didn't call back so i'm guessing he's in bed resting i left him a message on the phone to go back to bed if that was what he was doin he's been sleepin' a lot lately he needs to save his strength i'll call him in the mornin, and call Sandy in the meantime to make sure he's ok he stays with Sandy and her husband at their house and has for some time she's how i met him she brought him to church a year ago or so.....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT color=#000099 size=4>anyways, i'm resting tonite i still have a slight head cold and need to rest myself before back to work manana ..hopefully the good news will arrive tomorrow about my job at the church and i can start counting down the days til i get there.....sweet dreams...g'nite all </FONT> </P><SPAN style="VISIBILITY: hidden" woohooNameSaved="photoPileWoohoo"></SPAN>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-78971572506932744362008-09-14T20:48:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.615-07:00k-not today...<P><FONT size=4>so, it's been a birthday!!! goodness where do i start i'll try and unravel it as it happened....first, i called Marsha she backed out of goin' 2 the fair i said no problem and headed out the door goin' by myself my adventure there was to take photos anyways i got there early and good parkin' but half the vendors weren't even open so i just strolled toward the "barns" where the horses and other animals were along the way i saw old antique cars kewl more photos anyways, i took a few photos of a horse before i realized i hadn't put my camera on auto focus due to my cataract, those photos were all blurry, so i deleted them i took a couple photos in the barn they didn't turn out because i hadn't the camera on auto for the flash to pop up Goodness alas i get it all set right for the day=all auto after taking photos of the antique cars and a few of the animals for pettin', the battery dies i said OK, today's not the day for the fair no Marsha no Madison and no photos-Oi!!! i did have my funnel cake but it reminded me of how expensive the fair can be i ate the whole damn thing every last crumb for my $6, plus $3 for a bottle water goodness anyways, so i decide to head home stop and get some dog food and bird feed i'm goin home to watch football and call it a day i'll cancel my dinner date(which i did) and just chill but i wanted a football jersey to wear for the day so i stopped at Target and purchased one just wanted to be really chilled out bummin' for the day...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>so i arrived home there's a birthday package outside my door o yes, i forgot Maggie wanted to hook up with me for my birthday card well she dropped off a package the card said "i hope u can use this" i open it up and guess what was in it....a New Mexico football jersey cotton tee with KAREBEAR on the back boy did she have esp or what it also happened to be the same shirt i saw not long ago somewhere that i liked like i said..esp...anyways i call her and thanked her she then brings over a plate of food from her party she had, plus a half gallon of Blue Bunny Vanilla ice cream AND home made fudge syrup-she made this herself so i had a wonderful lunch and hot fudge sundae delicious! (and of course as usual she shows up at my place when it's at its worse).....it's all good (i got this sayin from her)...</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>so movin right along, it's 4pm MY SON CALLS ME!!!! this is a miracle in itself it is also his birthday today too transpose the last 2digits of the year of my birth, then you have the year of his birth i know eerie, but kewl to say the least we talked for a good 15mins that's long in comparison when we usually talk they celebrated his birthday last night BUT, they also celebrated his wife being pregnant they just found out I'M GOIN' 2 BE A GRANDMA!!! what great news! i'm ecstatic! he did also let me know when he leaves for sure for Iraq in October he's tryin to delay it a few days so he can celebrate his wife's birthday with her i hope he gets it....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>so as the day has gone by me watchin football, first my Bears happened to be on after all when i got home (which they lost on turnovers) i then watched Denver Broncos (my second team) play and win, almost losing on turnovers so i'm thinking, it's a pretty chilled day happy i rested so i then proceed to go back to Target to exchange the football jersey i bought earlier i wasn't even a block down the road when Jesse called again so he says "like are we doin' this dinner tonite or what" remember, i called and cancelled it on him...anyways with his good spirit and harassing me, i said yes what time do i pick u up....moving time forward...so we decided to sit at the bar while waiting on a sit in turn deciding to just eat at the bar he starts tellin' me his stories again which i enjoy i had ordered the Lobster and Shrimp dinner the lobster was gone and all but 4 shrimp were gone when just as i'm about to bite into a shrimp, he begins his story of a job he had of bitin' chicken heads off needless to say i didn't take a bite...lol....i couldn't believe my ears being in the military and traveling a bit, i've heard stories stories i wouldn't repeat but i've never heard of this type job it was a show and he got paid big bucks per chicken head i still can't get over it, but he had me rollin in tears again tonite he told me i'm in the lightweight hall of fame becaue i only had half a beer (i was drivin' and i wasn't takin any chances with my meds and alcohol) but anyways he had me rollin on the way home after droppin him off i found myself sittin at a green light thinkin about them chicken heads God!!!....anyways, i had a great time with him tonite he picked up the tab, but i insisted on the tip his company for my birthday was all i was seekin' he ate heartedly again tonite i was happy to see that i'll be askin' him for another meal, but this time it's my treat as he told me tonite before we went out, "ya don't know if you're goin' to be around for your next birthday, so you just gotta go out" he's right live like there's no tomorrow live like you were dyin' ......</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>p.s. i did get a few photos at the fair as soon as my battery charges, i'll download them and share</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>Thank you God for a wonderful day and a wonderful guy like Jesse and wonderful friends that i have here in New Mexico and all over j-land!!!</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-91451518087077105532008-09-14T05:45:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.615-07:00before dawn<P><A href=""><IMG height=298 src="http://tn3-2.deviantart.com/fs37/300W/f/2008/257/c/5/c5819a5d8fc3b9b6e5cdc8c69ae17fd8.jpg" width=300/></A> <FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>Under by~dechobek</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>good mornin it's dark outside pitch black i've awakened before dawn for some unknown reason haven't been up at this hour in quite some time think i'll take a peek at the sunrise, if it should do so forecast is cloudy today and i hear the wind howlin' it's goin 2 be a cool morn at the state fair then, IF we go Marsha stopped by the store yesterday while i was workin' i hadn't gotten a hold of her in the past couple days and she stopped by to tell me she's ok turns out her & her daughter (Madison's mom) had a falling out it wasn't pretty so needless to say, Madison won't be joining us for the fair i'm a little disappointed but understand the situation wholly and what the disagreement was about anyways, so Marsha had also mention goin to church since Rev Judy, our interim minister now, will be speaking Rev Judy used to be the minister there about 15yrs ago or so she's a wonderful woman, but there will be other times she speaks so we may not go today....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>in the meantime, life at the store was at its usual the woman i work with now works sometimes and other times doesn't she too takes a half a dozen cigarette breaks and talks to her boyfriend lots as well another reminder one reason i'm leaving then we got the phone call that SID was out too yesterday the major reason i'm leaving one co-worker begged me yesterday to stay and work one day a week so they wouldn't lose me God NO!!! she knows i'm a GOOD worker i know i'm a good worker this i have learned about myself also the reason the church wants me but there's no way in hell i'm staying at that store it all hit me in the face the other day at once, in lieu of bits & pieces, staying there is not an option!.....hurry up tuesday, the day i find out for sure when i start at the church!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>now, if all goes well, i'll have my dinner with Jesse tonite at Red Lobster with Marsha's 9/11 day, something about her not having cash for the fair and her ATM card not workin i told her i had it but i also owe Jesse a dinner so i had planned on paying for his dinner tonite i also need dog food it'll all work out, even if i have to wait a day or two for the dinner i WILL get my Red Lobster dinner in soon it's all good Life happens like this sometimes so i just go with the flow so that will be the day today, goin with the flow maybe by the end of the day i'll have photos from the fair It's a great day already in my mind and heart it can only get better... </FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-80837381322730196732008-09-12T20:22:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.616-07:00friday nite lights<P><FONT size=4>goodness it's friday nite 9pm i'm home finally got home a little while ago, but immediately learned i forgot to get my coffee creamer so back out the door down to the store i went without it this morn, but 2 morns in a row is not an option inside my place it looks like a tornado hit it and i forgot to turn the air on so it's stuffy here-ugh anyways, glad to be home early on fri-sat nites now he's workin me 11am-8pm now like it much better than the 2pm-10pm but alas i won't be there hopefully much longer on wednesday i called our church administrator and told her to put my name back into the hat for the Night Angel position well yesterday she told me that myself and George were the only ones who applied and George only wants one night so i'm basically hired but she doesn't figure she'll actually start the position until approximately 1 Oct wednesday when i went into the store to work, i just KNEW that i no longer wanted to be there for various reasons so i'm goin' to the church i look forward to it and some peace and quiet while workin' ....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>in the meantime, yesterday i also found out i have an appointment regarding my cataract surgery coming up on the 23rd of this month at that time i'll find out when the surgery will be, or at least i hope so i hope they do it soon really tired of the blurryness at times i wear my readers just to help for a clear focus, and they're not prescription so needless to say, i'm anxious for this to be done and over although apprehensive at the same time hopefully i won't have to take too much pain meds afterwards for that interferes with my other meds damn if i do damn if i don't i'll keep u posted when it gets here.....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT size=4>now, one more day and i'm off for two i'm lookin forward to that!</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-65466226453849837372008-09-11T21:36:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.616-07:00remembering<A href="http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.coping.org/911/tribute/tribute1.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.coping.org/911/musicmod/content.htm&h=440&w=448&sz=15&hl=en&start=4&sig2=WWa20KPsyp4CMuPlBKJ0zg&um=1&usg=__lojhLYzQ2UJUsxGcAKJBHOXGITw=&tbnid=yIEJRUzPo7UvvM:&tbnh=125&tbnw=127&ei=lu_JSOO6O5CktQPW9_WnCQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3D9.11.01%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DX%26ie%3DUTF-8"><IMG style="BORDER-RIGHT: 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: 1px solid; BORDER-LEFT: 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: 1px solid" height=125 src="http://tbn0.google.com/images?q=tbn:yIEJRUzPo7UvvM:http://www.coping.org/911/tribute/tribute1.jpg" width=127/></A> <FONT face="Comic Sans MS">i know today we remember 9/11 and all those who lost their lives to that event i would also like us to remember the soldiers who have since went to war because of that event...today, of all days, i ran into Danny for those new to my journal, Danny is one of my former co-workers at the post office Danny was a Marine Reservist who spent time on the front lines in Iraq at the start of the war he was returned there again doing patrol in some of the treacherous places for another year they wanted to send him a third time, but he decided to discharge from the Marines he has 3 young girls, 2 newborns at the time of the second tour he wanted to watch them grow up but also the war has really affected him he told me today he's working on retiring from the Marines and the post office it's all too much for him now he's seeking treatment again i don't know his diagnosis, but i'm guessing PTSD anyways, i'd like for us to remember our soldiers past and current who have been affected from 9/11 as well may we keep them in our prayers so they may heal and move on with life normally my son also returns there in about a month may our prayers and our votes elect us a president who will bring our troops home permanently giving the Iraqis their country back while giving our soldiers back to US we have not forgotten, we will never forget....</FONT>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-36796254557004315752008-09-09T18:08:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.617-07:00just around the corner<IMG class=largeThumbnail id=largeImg height=311 alt="" src="http://shutter15.pictures.aol.com/data/pictures/07/006/73/FD/34/D7/VridIoEi1zL7jqiqhEXhfnIbrVoDo6NK0300.jpg" width=467/> <FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>tuesday evening the sun is setting after a bit of rain it's cooler nowadays at nite at least here by the mountains i've got the sniffles i just took a shot of J.D. hopefully with the little bit of whiskey a day i can hold off getting the cold full blown it's been a lazy day again i woke about 10:30am but that was because i didn't get to sleep til 3am don't know why i'm not sleepin lately, but i'd like to get back on track with that anyways i called Jesse for brunch he happened to be down the street so i met him at Chili's for lunch it was a great visit i love listening to his stories i swear he's done it all or at least in the Jack of all trades business he cooks, is a handyman and rebuild auto machines he's always keepin himself busy with some kind of project, but he could have easily fallen asleep at lunch today he has a sense of humor about his impending death bed "it is what it is" he says but today he at least ate a full plate of food i had heard he hadn't been eatin much so anyways, as i said, it was a good visit i invited him to dinner sunday nite provided no other friends have plans for me for my birthday i treat myself to Red Lobster that's the only time i go and the taste of the food remains delicious so we'll see if we make it this sunday if not, maybe monday after my doctor's appointment (just a regular check up for a annual physical exam) anyways, i'm just lounging right now trying to rest so this "cold" won't get any worse i work tomorrow, but i'll at least be working with someone that works and i don't have to do all of it myself so until something exciting happens soon i'll be seeing ya...hugz</FONT>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-46932161506453861532008-09-08T18:37:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.617-07:00happy birthday 2 me..<A href="http://www.pyzam.com/graphics/details/7836"><IMG src="http://static.pyzam.com/img/thumbs/g_340/graphics/4/MZ118.gif"/></A> <FONT face="Comic Sans MS" color=#000099 size=4>monday monday easy like sunday mornin....anyways, i took it easy today needed to rest although i almost rode my bike up to Bandelier by the time i got to Cottonwood Mall, i was tired so i decided not to take that ride today on the way there i stopped by and talked to the boss he'll work me 4days for now, but will split them up for me so i don't work more than 2 in a row yesterday reminded me of why i'm medically retired so anyways, this means i get this sunday off which happens to be my birthday YAY!!! and i'll be going to the New Mexico State Fair with Marsha, Lil Madison and Diana (Madison's mom) as i was contemplating going to the fair by myself to take photos of people, events and animals, i thought of Madison why couldn't i take her photo of petting those goats and other small animals set aside just for kids so i asked Marsha for my birthday present, let's all go so we're goin'!!! i still may need to go by myself to take photos of other events, IF i decide to do so, but my birthday is set Marsha wants Madison to get in her first rides on the kiddy rides at the fair so i'll take loads of photos of my favorite subject=Madison who know's maybe i could win her a toy (not likely) so i'm excited about the day to come....in the meantime, Jane from church called checkin in on me she had heard i withdrew my application for the Night Angel position i explained why 6days a week there was waaaaaay too many she understood perfectly she's steppin down from some of her volunteering there as well i love my church and the people there, but we could make a soap opera out of it sometimes Goodness......now, about Jesse i had to call Sandy to check on him he's slowin' down quite a bit he's pretending everything is ok with everyone, except Sandy sees him in the bed a lot, how long it takes him to do things, and he's using his oxygen more often so i'm making it a pact to call him daily just to day hello and i'll make sure i' see him once a week or more if possible even if we just sit and have coffee he did call me back today after i called him a few times the past couple days (he's not taking many phone calls right now either) i told him i love him and i'll see him soon i know he's tryin to be mr macho thru all this, but i'd like to let him know he can humble himself and ask for help he took off towards Santa Fe this morn and didn't tell anyone where he was going i had to call Sandy this afternoon to make sure he got home safely he was by 2pm back in bed restin' thank goodness this isn't easy, but i'm learning from him a little more about illnesses and death i like his perspective on things i just wish him the best gotta spend more time with him before he goes....</FONT>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-24131776016544179792008-09-07T22:20:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.618-07:00winning tickets<P><A title="Chicago Bears logo - A modernised blue and orange bear head roaring" href="http://www.sportslogos.net/logo.php?id=354"><IMG class=thumb src="http://www.sportslogos.net/images/logos/7/169/thumbs/354.gif"/></A> <FONT size=5>so, my Bears won tonite i came home to the news after work i usually don't work sundays, but i did tonite this news made me happy today i wasn't too happy at work today i walked in there discovering i was working with the same woman i did yesterday...UGH...she was a little better today learned she's only been employed one week with no register experience my boss shut down the powerball machine so it was out-of-order while she was on shift but i still got frustrated a bit with her she messed up the register a few more times and the customers' orders but thankfully it was a much slower day i was able to get some of the other duties done today but i still had to hang out closely to the register just not what i wanted to do today i was hopin Krissy was back, the woman who was supposed to be there yesterday learned she's in Farmington, NM, 4hrs away from here and gone a week i suppose..i'm thinkin IF she comes back i think that's where home is for her....anyways, i've learned already, 3 days in a row are too much for me will call the boss tomorrow and ask him to split them up a little more 2 days on, 2 days off, 2days on or something like that anyways, i'm fine now having that beer tonite chose the milk last nite, but after today, beer is good i even had a cigarette at work today, but that wasn't much help i had won $11 on the lottery from my tickets yesterday spent it on cigarettes i initially wanted to try the American Spirit so i did and they were too strong, but of course i didn't buy the ultra lights so i gave that pack away and bought my usual ultra lights a pack will last me 6months or more usually i was almost out anyways right now the beer is just perfect now i'll sleep well tonite ...and that's where i'm headed.</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-18262647587814610702008-09-07T08:04:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.618-07:00thought 4 the day<P>There is a time in every man's education when he arrives at the conviction that envy is ignorance; that imitation is suicide; that he must take himself for better for worse as his portion . . . It is the harder because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.<EM>-<A id=ctl00_cpMain_ViewImageControl_ucImageView_PhotoNoter1_hypImageNext href="http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=92809870&albumID=1991074&imageID=28058010#a=1991074&i=28058024"><IMG id=userImage src="http://a112.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/33/l_3e3a7b153b725f31383b2aa65c9ae277.jpg"/></A></EM></P>
<P><EM>quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson....photo by me</EM></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>i just found this quote a great reflection of me at times i can be in the midst of a crowd and have my solitude ...today will be one of those days...</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-690281801427925132008-09-07T06:45:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.619-07:00interesting<DIV dir=ltr><FONT face="Tempus Sans ITC" color=#800080 size=3>
<DIV><STRONG>Have a history teacher explain this ---- If they can?<BR/><BR/>Abraham Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846.<BR/>John F. Kennedy was elected to Congress in 1946.<BR/><BR/>Abraham Lincoln was elected President in 1860.<BR/>John F. Kennedy was elected President in 1960.<BR/><BR/>Both were particularly concerned with civil rights.<BR/>Both wives lost their children while living in the White House.<BR/><BR/>Both Presidents were shot on a Friday.<BR/>Both Presidents were shot in the head.<BR/><BR/>Lincoln's secretary was named Kennedy.<BR/>Kennedy's secretary was named Lincoln.<BR/><BR/>Both were assassinated by Southerners.<BR/>Both were succeeded by Southerners named Johnson.<BR/><BR/>Andrew Johnson, who succeeded Lincoln, was born in 1808.<BR/>Lyndon Johnson, who succeeded Kennedy, was born in 1908.<BR/><BR/>John Wilkes Booth, who assassinated Lincoln, was born in 1839. Lee<BR/>Harvey Oswald, who assassinated Kennedy, was born in 1939.<BR/><BR/>Both assassins were known by their! three names.<BR/>Both names are composed of fifteen letters.<BR/><BR/>Lincoln was shot at the theater named 'Ford.'<BR/>Kennedy was shot in a car called a 'Lincoln' made by Ford.<BR/><BR/>Booth ran from the theater and was caught in a warehouse.<BR/>Oswald ran from a warehouse and was caught in a theater.<BR/><BR/>Booth and Oswald were assassinated before their trials! And here's the<BR/>kicker:<BR/><BR/>A week before Lincoln was shot, he was in Monroe, Maryland.<BR/>A week before Kennedy was shot, he was with Marilyn Monroe.<BR/><BR/>Creepy, huh?</STRONG></DIV>
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<DIV>got this from a friend in an email....i had heard of some aspects of Lincoln & Kennedy to be similar, but not this many.</DIV>
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<DIV>o yes, i forgot to tell you this i decided not to take the job at the church if i did i would have been there 6days a week 5days a week just to get my hours in i needed, plus one niight a week for my practitioner class that's way too much at my current job i can get those work hours in 2 days nope too much at the church and my therapist said so also i also resigned as the church's hiking coordinator well not only did he change my hours on saturdays where i couldn't do it, i also realized that even if we changed one saturday a month to the 2-10pm shift that would make for a very long day for me it would be hiking 3-4hrs in the morn, then going to work for 8-9hr shift way too much for me so eventually i''ll be working for the church in another capacity volunterrily most likely it's all good.....in the meantime this morn, i'm still laughin from last nite but tonite i'll have that beer or wine in lieu of the milk i decided last nite i was dreaming of waiting on customers this morn as i woke-ugh and i was in some foreign country while doin it go figure....</DIV></FONT></DIV>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-53380321100816987652008-09-06T19:15:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.619-07:00milk..beer..or wine?<P><IMG class=largeThumbnail id=largeImg height=311 alt="" src="http://shutter04.pictures.aol.com/data/pictures/20/007/7B/FB/19/D3/Kxfm9H0ig7CM5ZY29PShAaTmCCcJ+F9l0300.jpg" width=206/> <FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>so, like it's saturday nite i'm finally home work it was one heck of a day, especially this afternoon so these past couple weekends my boss has me in @ 10or11am working til 7 or 8pm so i work with the mornin person and the afternoon person well for the second weekend in a row and second day in a row, the afternoon person doesn't show up my boss strolls in about 2 this afternoon i'm like wondering why the hell is he here well again the afternoon person called in so while he's busy elsewhere i'm holdin down the fort, but occasionally he does come help with the long lines well there was another manager in the store purchasing things and offered us one of his employees for the rest of the shift she came over really quickly kewl i'm thinking some relief well i soon learned that although she's been working for our company for 3weeks, she doesn't know how to use the register nor the powerball machine O God, chapter 13 it was not a good scene for the customers and for some reason we were unusually busy today normally our saturdays are slow, but not today they came out of the woodworks she seriously fumbled often with even one or two customers walking out on her in the middle of a transaction and i was taking care of 6 customers to her 1 and i didn't know that the boss was still around he had gone back in his office and closed the door i couldn't leave her alone behind the counter she was still strugglin' hours later when i got off the shift after awhile after stressin it out for hours, i started to crack up laughing what else was i to do i'm still laughin one regular customer came in and i punched in a birthday for her before she gave me her id she's in her 60s or 70s anyways, as she was givin me her id, she was tellin me her birthdate i told her i punched her in younger, but i could do it all over if she wanted we both started crackin up laughin i was rollin into tears by that time tears of laughter that was the second best thing of the day the best was an ol' friend of mine i haven't seen in like many years came into the store she was my realtor when i lived up in the mountains over 7yrs ago i haven't seen her since it was great to chat for a moment and get her number she's moved back into town right now and divorcing her husband that's all i got in 5mins with her while waiting on her so we'll have to go to coffee soon she looks great happy she's still around (and i mean that literally) anyways, now i sit chillin debating on my choice of drink for the night my usual is milk, but i may have to have that alcohol tonite this afternoon was really really really hectic, but i have a smile on my face:-)!</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>p.s. God bless that woman that came to help me today she did her best!</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-35603436031710216962008-09-04T17:43:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.620-07:00sleepy day...<P><A href=""><IMG height=227 src="http://tn3-1.deviantart.com/fs36/300W/i/2008/246/b/9/491_by_evy_and_cats.jpg" width=300/></A><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4> 491 by evy-and-cats</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=4>so this looks like how i feel all day today i woke this morn after a few hours sleep i drank my brew and finally got on with my day about noon time but i was feelin' really tired i packed my bags so i could go to the mountains i then went to Applebee's for brunch only to not enjoy the steak i had i hadn't eaten there in a very long time so i stopped a few weeks ago for some pasta stopped today for my steak the food there no longer tastes as good as it used to be it seems bland compared to previous times so anyways, i moved on from there on to the VA i had to pick my meds that my doc ordered for me i ran out of refills and had to call her so the VA was my priority today but still after that, i was feelin real tired so i came home took a nap and am still lounging around all the stress lately must have caught up with me i've finally let go of things i've needed to so tonite i sit watchin more tennis, although it's the first night of the NFL football season tennis arrives intermittently i watch it when i can football season is just beginning with more to come...i'm ready to crawl in for another nap and so is the day for me under the covers...</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-36017020491505639772008-09-04T00:44:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.620-07:00success<STRONG>Success</STRONG>
<P>To laugh often and much;<BR/>To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;<BR/>To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;<BR/>To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;<BR/>To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;<BR/>To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.<BR/>This is to have succeeded. -<EM>Bessie Stanley (adapted; erroneously attributed to Ralph Waldo Emerson)</EM></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=5>it is the wee hours of the morn, 2am almost, i woke from a dream that disturbed me somehow once i opened my eyes it was clear to me as to when the bills will be paid spring time next year there is light at the end of the tunnel i must keep it at my grasp it has been there, but i've let it slip away so anyways, i will succeed again no doubt about it and with those thoughts i found the above quote and the ones below it its in the midst of the cancel trip that i sense anew again that it isn't so much the bills, but how i live my life the way in which i react to it as well do i dive into sulking or to i pick my ass up off the floor and forge ahead with a new perspective a new determination a new attitude towards money it is the thought by which i live that creates a better life a better reality anyways, these quotes on this entry are loftier perspectives for me to contemplate and embrace for the living in the moment i like Einstein's for they provoke thought they reflect true value i've written them down so i may see them time to time....</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=5><U>Albert Einstein:</U></FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=5>Try not to become a man of success but rather try to become a man of value.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=5> The ideals which have lighted me on my way and time after time given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Truth, Goodness, and Beauty...The ordinary objects ofhuman endeavor--property, outward success, luxury--have always seemed to be contemptible.</FONT></P>
<P><U><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=5>Abraham Lincoln:</FONT></U></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=5> Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other thing.</FONT></P>
<P><FONT face="Comic Sans MS" size=5>i have felt for a long time now, that success is defined individually by one's own thoughts i know i have succeeded in life already in some ways now is the time to succeed in a different light...</FONT></P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7026644440053948121.post-61553391399980674352008-09-03T21:06:00.000-07:002008-10-08T18:18:20.621-07:00old photo...<P><IMG class=largeThumbnail id=largeImg height=311 alt="" src="http://shutter03.pictures.aol.com/data/pictures/05/001/3F/31/A9/2F/-W5jHIfI335tyqwVfWV9tkGV6ccFxWlg0300.jpg" width=467/> i was browsin' thru my old photos and found this one i had forgotten i took this pic a few years ago on a visit to Bandelier National Park she sure is a beauty as i was browsin the photos i surprise myself on how some seem to look better now than when i initially took them but that is my critical judgment of my own photos that's why nowadays i show them to others to get a better view and opinion...</P>
<P>anyways, it's wednesday nite i just finished watchin the Williams sisters play a tennis match at the US Open their matches are really the "finals" no matter when they play tonite was just a quarterfinal match but they're both awesome and i think the best women tennis players nowadays regardless of their rankings i have yet to see any other women players really top their performances.....anyways, it was a nice way to chill out and take my mind off things today i made another decision i decided not to take the job at the church while chattin with Rev Jennie about it today, i remembered i'd be there 5-6days a week at the church gettin in my hours needed plus one nite for practitioner class that's too much for me and this illness i even talked to my therapist about and she agreed so two decisions in two days i know yesterday's decision is the RIGHT decision i was hurt and disappointed about my cancelled trip, but i feel better for making the right decision i must honor my obligations for that is honoring my word which stays in line with my integrity there is still something for me to learn with the bills, but i'm gettin there i've had every attitude i could think of it to embrace them, but i think i still fight like the dickens at times in a couple weeks i'll have a counseling session with Rev Jennie to talk about she definitely always says something i have yet to think of which gives me better perspective and a better way to embrace whatever i'm workin' on it's all good for now, tomorrow i'm going to the Sandia Peak, weather permiting i'll talk to the wind and the Lord-God of my Being for some answers i'll soak up the greenery, fresh air and sunshine refreshing my Soul while beginning anew i'll take a hike and rejuvenate my body too i have yet to decide on whether to take my camera, but i probably will there is purposeful good in all life, in all things i know i will find that purpose in my bills as well and why i keep creating them unnecessarily this is this thing called life, an adventure to know sometimes i accept it and embrace, other times i don't and so is the journey here whatever we may cross it is a blessing, no matter how hard at times it seems...</P>kbearhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03434288750803412632noreply@blogger.com0