friday nite...

well it's friday nite and ain't nothin' happenin anywheres    anywhere i want to be other than here at home    it was another cold day here, back down in the 40s once again   but sunshine and heat are on the way again    it usually gets cold one more time before spring arrives permanently   i hope this week was the last of it, but if not, it won't be long   not a whole lot happenin' really   i applied for a couple part-time jobs needing a little dough after a major drop in my income the past 2 months   one drop was expected, the other showed up unexpectedly last week   something to do with my retirement plan at the p.o. and collecting social security simultaneously   IF i do a part-time job it will be briefly to pay a couple small loans off quickly before starting school   IF i get my back lump sum remaining from social security, a part-time job won't be needed but would be helpful a bit    it's taken awhile, but i finally realized today i can live without working again   my place is at the church apparently   i haven't been there much lately and i dropped in for lunch today   everyone missed me   i guess i've become a permanent fixture around there to my surprise   M was just telling me last sunday that i was a part of the energy there and more   it's taken all week, or longer, to realize this   never thought i'd be such a significant part with the community there    i've got a reputation, a good one, which precedes me and sooo many people know me more than i know them   well none of this was planned, but i'm grateful for their appreciation   me, i just think i'm a Speck in the universe playing some small role here for some unknown reason   just wantiing to do what i can, which seems so little to me, but not to others    this is such contrast from working at the p.o.   anyways, all is good   i realized today that the church is where i belong when i'm not at home, going to school or doing other life stuff like photography    so i'll continue doing whatever it is i do and hopefully make a difference in people's lives    sometimes i can't believe any of this   someone pinch me to let me know this is real    i still get the blues, like the past few days, but everything else is for the better   goodness, how blessed i am now   could things get any better....

I believe

the writing i wrote below was for my Spiritual Practice class project    last nite was the last class and our presentation    it was a wonderful class and i'm grateful i stuck it out and finished the class   so many times i wanted to quit only realizing my plate was too full therefore resistance to the class    it was a wonderful way to end the day after learning of the passing of a dear friend   i've known for over a week he would be leaving us soon and my heart has been heavy    yet thru his transition i truly realized that we are all spiritual beings experiencing the human life   Life is ongoing and there is no ending even in our transition to heaven    i will miss Carlos he was a blessing in my life   ....

I believe in God, the true parent, the Mother-Father Principle of all life.  This Supreme Intelligence lies silent and ever-present within me, within each of us, within everything.  It is the simplicity of a rose, the changing of leaves, lovers embracing, children laughing, the rising morning sun, the wind caressing one's cheek, fine wine & tobacco, coffe & conversation with a friend, God expressing in all things.  God is also Divine, love, passion, joy, wholeness, complete, perfect and more.  Whatsoever is in God, so it is in me.  I am all things and everyone in the Oneness of God.  I am an individualized expression of God, creating my life with Its power.  This poer is Thought.  Thought is the true giver of life that never dies, that can never be destroyed and it is the link to the Mind of God.  From Thought, the Source, I create through my mind and beliefs.  It is like a garden.  I am the garden, planting seeds of thoughts into the soil-which is Law-and creating my life.  I am an individual with free choice & will.   My will is God's will.  Of myself I can do nothing.  God and I are one...I believe in heaven that is withn me and outside of me.  The kingdom of heaven is within the reaches of my mind and yet lives beautifully outside of me through everyone and everything.  It exists here and now here on earth.  I believe the ultimate goal of life is to live in Oneness with God and all life.  That all seen and unseenn are my brothers and my sisters living harmoniously with all life.  I believe I am light, which is the true essence of love which is God, permeating eternally through all life.  I believe in nature for nature is a perfect mirror for all of us reflecting the purity of God.  Nature does not judge, does not curse, is unmolested, whole in its virtue exuberating pure love at all times which is God.  I believe in living the moment of Now.  A moment ago is gone, the next moment hasnt arrived.  Now is all there is with the simple treasures of life unfolding in the mment; the breath of life, a flower in bloom, a waterfall, coyotes howling, cuddling with my kiids and more, however God in its virtue expresses in the moment.  I believe in joy and love the true essence of God.  I believe the journey here is to know God in all forms, which is also to know self...self realized is God realized-the nature of all Life.

ride!!!!

having too much fun ridin' my bike   i finally got it out today   charged the battery last nite   dusted it off and hit the road    i didn't go anywhere but around town    and this is one big town, spread out for miles     it was a blast!   went up to the Harley shop to get a hot dog, but no dogs were available    as i window shopped and sipped a coke, i saw a woman that was in my riding class last year    she didn't finish the course, but she's now riding   i was sooo happy for her    we exchanged numbers and hopefully will ride together laterz     then i headed back home only to find myself racing with another young guy on his crotch rocket   i out did him   yep i was havin too much fun    i also kept forgetting to turn the fuel on, but hey it's been 3months since ridin'....lol    anyways, it was just the pick me upper i needed this week   nothin' like refreshin the soul on a bike...

for Marti.....and others too:-)

ok   here are 3 pics i played with on my adobe photoshop    i like this look   i call it vintage   adobe photoshop calls it a sepia filter i think    anyways, this pics were from my Disney trip    after playing with adobe, i printed these and have them around  my house     i also made a couple paper greeting cards with some pics of mine to give away    hopefully i'll find other paper to do the greeting cards with eventually    i also made my first eCard with the photoshop and sent it to M    i also played with fixing the lighting on some photos    those photos turned out better    i'll play some more this weekend and post some more photos that some of you may have seen already    but it's been awhile so they may be like new.....i'm sooo looking forward to Art College    as i go thru class and take photos, i'll share them with you    school starts this summer   i know i'm going to have a blast!

p.s.

i rediscovered that i had adobe photoshop   it came with either my printer or computer when i bought those last spring    i had totally forgotten about it and while looking for another disc, i found it    so i loaded and began playing with it today    what fun!   a new toy to play with:-)...

the answer is here...

hmmm, where to start......it's been a week and it's only half way over   the past few days have been challenging   some due to my blues, the other due to worry about getting into the Art Center Design College    monday i found out that i didn't score so hot on the ACT, but hey i wasn't expecting to score high on it in the first place   then yesterday it slapped me in the face as to the costs of this college-sky rocketing to say the least    was it going to be worth it?    i examined and compared it to UNM, the costs, the curriculum and where was my  heart    anxiety to say the least   i broke down and had a cigarrette after going without for 3months    i had to let all this sink in    was this what i really wanted to do?    this morn, i recognized yes it would be worth it to me even though i'd have a hefty bill when it was all over    this has been my dream for soooo very long   decades in fact   i've never been able to let go of this dream to study photography and obtain my bachelor's degree   it just won't go away    for some of us, we live only once    for me, my life has had its challenges enough   now is the time to enjoy and pursue my dreams   ....so later today i get the call    the admissions counselor first asked if i still wanted to do this, before she told me whether i got in or not   i had called her about the costs yesterday   today i explained it all to her    my answer:   yes i still want to do this   it is worth it to me..."you've been 100% accepted into the college," were her words.....I'm IN!!!!

Wild Hogs

well the day started with the ACT test required in my application to the Art College    it kicked my ass    it was a bitch    i'll find out monday how i did on it but you know, it was a challenge   i like to be challenged in some way or another   i just hope i did well enough to get in the school    the facilitator giving the test said this college will work with you if you have low scores    they'll place you and then ask you to repeat the test    i hope i don't ever have to take this test again    we'll see    and if this test is any indicator how school will be, i've got my work cut out for me   but that's ok    i like a good day's work......

so after the test, i took myself to lunch to my favorite burger place   felt i earned it just for getting thru the test...... then i came home and had a beer.....then i met a friend for a movie, Wild Hogs     it's hilarious!    if you need some great laughter, this is the movie    it was also partly filmed in New Mexico    the town they end up in is Madrid which is only 40mins down the road from here   i had forgotten that they were going to do the movie there    last spring when i road my bike up there, they were constructing the Diner for the movie and someone informed me all about it    so if you'd like to see a place where i like to ride my bike , see Madrid in this movie    anyways, i highly recommend this movie for loads of fun   well worth it!......in the meantime, i'll post my acceptance or not to the Art College probably by next wednesday     she said i'd know monday afternoon or sometime tuesday   i'm adding a day for whatever     until then....hasta la vista!