another shadow

really didn't have an exciting day    i had a route inspector with me all day   he was a nice guy   i'm curious though after today if they will adjust my route   i'd actually be surprised if they did   we'll see   i've never liked the route counts especially figuring out what they really do with all those counts...Nothing...but at least we didn't have a full route count which consists of counting mail for all 6days of the week   nowadays i feel for the most part they're a waste of my time   but i deal with them and treat the inspectors respectively    but they can be a pain in the rear as well sometimes    o well life goes on   i manage to live thru them all for 19yrs now   soon to be over i hope....anyways, Kyle has "Torque" on  it's definitely a male movie   o well, i'll find another movie laterz   besides he rented 'Cyborg' too which Jean-Claude Van Damme was appealing   ....tonite i'll finish washing my dogs then i won't have the creepy crawlies all over me with ticks   the shampoo is working well on the other 2 already bathed...2 more days and i'm off   looking forward to my sunday off   interesting i should receive some mail from church today   it'll be good to see some people there this sunday since it's been a couple months since i've been   at least now i have a clear picture of my spiritual journey ahead...life is good, but i haven't won the lottery yet...lol

Spirit Warrior

i woke this morn to a dream   another dream involving, evolving my spiritual journey   Dona a fellow j-lander wrote an entry recently regarding to thine own self be true   between it and reading a book, A Path with Heart -Jack Kornfield, i dreamed of what my spiritual journey means to me   it is a path i walk alone, but not alone   it is a path with many directions like the many branches of a tree, but it has one direction   I am a Spiritual Warrior   my path leads me innerwardly to my own struggles, joy, tears, laughter and so much more   it is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves  there is an ebb & flow like the ocean washing ashore on the beach   with each new tide, there is more wisdom learned and to be learned   there are times my journey consists only of me while i sit, contemplate and grow from within   there are times there are other people and what life outside of me holds for me    each an integral part of who i am, how i live and being a light to others ....for it was within this dream this morn, i finally remembered my Spiritual Journey and how i walk that path    it is not others shaping and molding me as they see fit    it is me who tears me apart and creates a new Self within me for which to live by example    i remembered i had desired to be a Light to others  and it is through different teachings, not just one which steers my course, which humbles me and rekindles my Soul   i am one of many, yet many of one   there is a place for me to return, a teaching to remember   may i continuously remember from this day forward   a new season is upon us   a new breath to take   Change like the seasons, grow with the Wisdom it makes

pain in the ...

Posterior...lol    yep i got a pain there today   actually that is closer to where my pain in the hip has been or so it felt like today at the doc's office    i had an appointment to see about getting that piece of metal out of my hip   well they wanted to try a shot of cortisone first in lieu of going under the knife   i said sure, not ever having a shot of cortisone  so the shot was more like a shot in the a$$ than the him  them poking me in the area of the metal was a major pain   the shot numbed my left leg and i couldn't go back to work, doctor's orders   boy was my boss peed O    he's frustrated with me because i've missed a few days of work due to not sleeping   i did Finally get a good nites rest last nite   made it to work early today   all was well til i couldn't go back and finish my route  but tomorrow is another day and things will be good....tonite Kyle and I checked out an old truck for him to buy   now it's just waiting for his or my check to come in   if my check comes in first, i'll buy and he'll pay me once his bonus arrives   first objective is to get him his own wheels   govt is slow and so is the Army with his bonus....this weekend Nicole, Kyle's fiance, will be arriving with her new german shepherd puppy   I LOVE german shepherds  anyways, Jasmine, the new pup, will be here with Kyle until these 2 get together in El Paso   it'll be fun, although i'll be back to 5dogs in the house   we'll train Jasmine and have fun doing it   will socialize her as much as possible too   and it'll give Charlie another playmate   he's still like a puppy @ 4 1/2yrs old   he needs all the playmates he can with his energy....

Faith dares the soul to go farther than it can see.   -William Clarke

Goddess

Which Mythological Form Are You?

http://quizilla.com/users/donarepa/quizzes/Which%20Mythological%20Form%20Are%20You%3

You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator. "And The Goddess planted the acorn of life. She cried a single tear and shed a single drop of blood upon the earth where she buried it. From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into the world." Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek), Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian). The Goddess is associated with the concept of creation, the number 1, and the element of earth. Her sign is the dawn sun. As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic individual and people are drawn to you. Although sometimes you may seem emotionally distant, you are deeply in tune with other people's feelings and have tremendous empathy. Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your own self. Goddesses are the best friends to have because they're always willing to help.

i got this from Lori's journal    it was fun!

too sleep 2 know

it's 2am in the wee hours of the nite    i'm awake dammit...not sure i got a couple hours of sleep or not    my sleep is messed up again   i really don't know what's happening   i do see my doc this month, but in the meantime i'll switch the times of taking my meds to see if that works    there's no reason, none, as to why i should be awake   i'm hoping to fall back asleep within a half hour   we'll see....in the meantime, giving Jimmy his bath was an adventure, sorta    he did pretty good actually   he kept wanting out of the tub, but maybe that was because i was only half in it    i had to return him to the tub one more time for i had missed rinsing him enough in one area   this time i got into the whole tub and he followed    looking at him drenched, he really is a lean dog   it's his long hair that makes him appear bigger   that made me happy   means i have only one dog to put on a diet, my Max, my golden retriever  he's the oldest   next payday he gets his own special food   now to keep the other dogs from eating it    they do musical bowls around here except for Jimmy  no one goes near his food...anyways, think i'll find a book to read    i read some more of Potter before dozing off, but when i was waking up i was dreaming Potter   o god that was too much...

it's monday...

first...yes, Jimmy it sucks to be in the middle of family   so i try my damnest to stay out of things   the distance helps but it sure would be nice if everyone would get over 'it' and move on with life    o well, so is the way with people, family or not......now, tonite i'm about to tackle a dog bath   i coerced Kyle to bath Charlie today   figured he would be the easiest for Kyle to wash   my nephew has never given a dog a bath so i taught him over the phone    basically like washing a car, but you don't get soap in their eyes  and talk to them gently while bathing them and praise the dog for being still   Kyle is about to own a puppy, so he has his first lesson in bathing a dog  Charlie is the smallest of all my dogs, but small by no means and is the strongest dog i feel i have    Charlie smells soooo much better   but the baths are their annual and lately ticks have been showing up far too much  so Now is the time   first year i've had problems with ticks on these dogs   once i get my back yard covered in synthetic grass, my kids will probably get baths more often   but i don't see the point when they immediately go roll in the dirt after a bath and they're let outside    at the moment i'm contemplating who'll be next in the bath line   Max is the only one i haven't seen ticks on  i'll save him for last   think i'll tackle Jimmy   he's the biggest and i might as well prepare for my bath with him   but it'll be fun, challenging, but fun   then i'm taking my shower and hit the sack for some reading and zzzzs    tomorrow is advo day at work   i hate tuesday advo days   advos are those damn grocery ads in the mail   all of us carriers hate to deliver them as much as those who hate receiving them, but it's job security for us and the businesses involved    sure wish we could use our trees for something else, like shade!   and their sweet scents!    well that's all for tonite folks!    have a good one....

Safe...and Harry Potter

well my nephew made it safely home   i wasn't worried about his driving, it was those damn drunks on the road...anyhows, he's home and i was still awake waiting for him   i immediately went to sleep once in bed    while waiting i began the first book of Harry Potter   it's Wonderful!   i should have read it looong time ago   but now it will be such a great pleasure to enjoy these books.....i learned last nite too that my nephew and sister are at odds with each other   i don't know the story, but it was sure difficult listening to my sister talk badly about him yesterday   i'll get the other half of the story from Kyle soon, but that's still between them   i already have my thoughts regarding to my sister's opinions, she has old issues which resurfaced with Kyle    anyways, it's a painful reminder of how family members hang onto the past and remain angry all the time   Get Over It! i say   Life is too short to be angry all the time   there are soooo many treasures in life to enjoy and how will you see them when blinded by your anger....everyone have a great day!        laterz...