Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
getting this from Marti, this is a list of my favorite things nowadays that makes me smile:
pickin' my guitar...snugglin' with my doggies....hikin' a trail no matter where it is....and hangin' with my buddies Marsha and Lil Miss Madison....coffee or lunch with my friend Jen....the same with Maggie and just chattin with her on the phone ....sittin' in twilight with the full moon serenading the night creating the tranquility of the moment....cruisin on my bike down a back road soaking up the sun and feelin' the wind in my face....readin' a book while the music plays in the background...
Friday, March 21, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
Oi!!! goodness i lost my yellow filter 4 my camera again it's best used for b&w photography ..i got my film camera out again only second time in 2yrs i bought this camera 2yrs ago at the same time i bought my digital been playin with the digital sooooo much, i haven't really used the film camera but if i go back 2 school for photography, i'll need my film camera this is a new film camera for me this is a Nikon N75 so i played with it today with some old color film i've had laying around like forever the pictures are being printed within the next 24hrs do they not have 1hr photo anymore for film? granted i'm getting a picture cd done, but does it really take that long digital i'm learning is much cheaper i bought new batteries for my nikon n75 today i needed 2 and they were $8 for each one plus i bought a roll of b&w film it was $7 for the roll jimney christmas has b&w skyrocketed anyways, i didn't take any b&w photos today, thank God i really need my yellow filter with it makes b&w photos contrast a hell of a lot more sooooo, if i don't find that filter, there's another $35 for just one i really need one for both lens i have goodness, i've known photography isn't a cheap hobby, but it's been awhile since being faced with its cost anyways, good news, is i found blank note cards w/envelopes that i can make cards with my photos will do that and sell them at church for a starter will also matte some 5x7s and see if i can sell them maybe a few 8x10s while i'm at it i have my work cut out for me, but it'll be loads of fun!!! anyways, digital is cheaper now that i've discovered the difference not sure quality is compromised tho film may be better in the long run only life will tell us in the future either way...i'm lovin' it!....now pic's being processed at this moment, will be of my favorite subject of late = Lil Miss Madison i pick 'em up tomorrow evening will post asap!
Friday, March 14, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
Sunday, March 9, 2008
I saw Deepak Chopra tonite what an awesome individual of course we are all awesome in our own unique way i've read a couple books of his and enjoyed them i picked up his latest, The Third Jesus, on friday only 4 Maggie to call that nite and let me know he was in town so off we went and thank you Maggie for inviting me he's an awesome speaker i picked up another book of his and he signed it Maggie picked up several and got his signature too he definitely is enlightened now how do we evolve to such a place is my question i have no doubt we can get there, just not sure of the directions other than to go within to that place where God exists within you anyways, i can't speak enough of his enormity still a bit blown away with his lecture it was simply awesome!!!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
at the moment, photos are not adding on this journal...not even just one image....dammit....but coming soon will be my photos from our hike trip 2day my body is achin' all over because i carried Madison, all 25lbs of her, on my back we got far but not all the way to the top like the rest of the hike group....more on the trip and photos too.....soon
it's the wii hours of the mornin' didn't sleep soundly and up at an ungodly hour went back to bed, cuddlin' with my kids, but no sleep fell upon me so here i am wondering what to do with myself it's gonna be a loooooong day today's the hike with the church group so by the time i get back it'll be nap time for sure fresh wind and sunshine will wear me out just enough for some zzzzs ....in the meantime, i went to the social club with my gay brother Stephen it was an uneventful night for me of course i only stayed an hour wasn't sure i was going to go just didn't have the nerve to go there it's been about 15yrs since being at a club, but hey, who knows maybe i'd meet someone...nope...i did recognize for sure this is not where i want to meet an individual so i'll go back to the internet or the papers going 2 the clubs is just not my fanfare anymore the music was good, but i didnt dance think i forgot how...lol there seemed to be no single woman there all were coupled up plenty of single gay men, but they're not my type...so i'll say a prayer to meet someone at church or elsewhere should be interesting just the thought of dating scares the hell out of me, but if it's meant 2 be, it'll happen...
now for earlier in the day yesterday..Marsha and i ended up at Barnes & Noble although it was my idea to go there, i gave her a hard time for agreeing to go i never can walk out of there empty handed i just went lookin' 4 sum post-it tabs (thought i had seen sum there) anyways, 2ft into the doorway and there's a book calling my name a few feet more, and another by the time i left i had spent at least $50 w/a latte included, and no post-it tabs one book we picked up was by Deepak Chopra twilight zone hit later when Maggie called and asked if i'd like to go see him on sunday IF she could get tickets don't tell me Spirit doesn't work in mysterious ways this is an example how It works for sure anyways, yesterday was a very good day lots of fun and laughter w/Marsha playeda little guitar and hung out w/Stephen ....today the hike i keep saying i don't want to be the leader of the hike group, but alas i keep showing up maybe one day i'll resign my position...It's all good!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
That which cannot be seen is called invisible.
That which cannot be heard is called inaudible.
That which cannot be held is called intangible.
These three cannot be defined;
therefore, they are merged as one.
Each of these three is subtle for description.
By intuition you can see it,
and feel it.
Then the unseen,
are present as one.
Its rising brings no dawn,
it's setting no darkness;
it goes on and on, unnameable,
returning into nothingness.
Approach it and there is no beginning;
follow it and there is no end.
You cannot know it, but you can be it,
at ease in your own life.
Discovering how things have always been
brings one into harmony with the Way.
"Try to imagine the idea of forever: that which has never changed, that which has no beginning or end. It cannot be seen, heard, or touched...but you know it is and always has been. Think of that which even now, in this very moment as you read these words, is the very understanding that's within you-that essence that permeates you and everything else, yet always eludes your grasp."-from Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life, by Dr Wayne Dyer
to me this talks of the God essence within each of us, within every thing....and more
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
yeah! no blues this morn i like it i love it i want sum more of it!!!! anyways, i pray it stays like this for awhile ....anyways, it's a sunny day today high in the 50s i did find out my bike isn't ready today he's putting all back together now it'll be ready tomorrow but no problem i still have plenty to do i'm feelin good wishin i could be sittin havin' coffee with a friend right now, but they're all at work except for Jen who's at the Community Gathering in Kansas i think hmmm, i just thought of my brother Stephen i'll call him and see what he's up to he's retired too or maybe i'll take in another movie dollar movie a kid's movie somethin' relaxin' i had to have a shot of whiskey saturday nite after seeing so many action films whew! well i was also upset about my niece's situation, but i'm good now got my music on time for a shower have a great day everyone!
Monday, March 3, 2008
well i'm still around despite internet connection they're scheduled to be here friday, but i may have to call them again to get here before that...so, it's monday nite and the Oprah web event is on i started watchin' it but there were too many problems how can they expect 139 countries in the world with the USA included to be online all at once without mega problems go figure i'll try to watch it tomorrow it's centered around Tolle's book, A New Earth, Awakening to your Life's Purpose i have the book and read at least half it this time last year i'll begin it again soon but may read his first book, The Power of Now both are spiritual in nature Oprah picked his second book for her book club and of course it sold millions it's a very good book i recommend it if your spiritual at all and open minded, this book's for you anyways, enough of this subject....
today was a stay at home day i had 2 days reprieve from the blues only for them to be back today so i didn't go to work i'm doin' better this evening i'm practicing my guitar, listening to music, and watchin' tv (ballgame) i like this life of chillin' and today i saw my therapist she gave me some more suggestions for handling this illness i also talked a little regarding my niece's situation It's all good, but recent events reminded me that i am fragile a bit but just remember, i'm determined as hell regardless...tomorrow is a new day i should be gettin' my motorcycle out from the shop i'll be takin' it 4 a ride before work provided it's not too cold the cold weather has returned a bit, but who knows, maybe i'll dress like an eskimo and ride anyways if the sun is shinin', i'll be ridin'!....Life is Good, no doubt about it...
Sunday, March 2, 2008
so, i wrote this nice long journal entry a moment ago i was almost done and my internet connection dis-connected so i'll keep this short....first of all, the text and font size mechanics are not workin' on my journal, so if this is in very small lettering like the last entry, complain to aol....second, our minister announced today that he will retire effective 1sep08 i'll miss him...third, i've talked to just about everyone in the family about what's happening between my sister and her daughter i'm now waiting to talk to my niece it's ugly as usual with my older sister, but i'm going to do what i can...fourth, it's been a nice day piddlin' in between cuddlin' with my dogs when they're not jumpin in my lap while on the computer...fifth, and most important, the major blues are gone for now i'm feelin' GOOD!!!!....i'll be back after getting internet connection fixed...cya then!
Saturday, March 1, 2008
hello ...tonite i saw I Am Legend...time to take a break from the action films they're wearing me out..lol goodness, i need a cigarrette maybe later anyways yesterday i was in the middle of an entry when my oldest niece im'd me we've chatted for a couple nites in a row now most we've ever communicated since i haven't been in touch they were good chats and again i was reminded why i live here in NM i just want to kick my older sister's ass long story and i won't go into details, but as usual she's stirring up trouble anyways, i'm going to talk with my oldest niece again and see if there's anything i can do i've felt for years my hands have been tied for different reasons maybe this time i can step in somehow that's my family it's damn hard too many times i will get thru...in the meantime did i tell you i started my guitar lessons again? had my first one on thursday i pray my left shoulder and arm hold out that's what gave me the problems last time i put it down some way, some how, i'm gonna play...in the meantime i'm headed to church tomorrow i'll get the official announcement that our minister will retire effective sept 1 it'll be interesting to see how changes take place between now & then, then afterwards maybe Rev Jennie will apply for the position and actually get it people come and go from church due to their likes or dislikes we'll see what happens...