movin'...

well i ain't movin', but our church just did today    we've been preparing for months, but especially the last 2months for this move    finished packing this week and the movers came today   i've been there all week and workin' too   but' it's all good   today i got sunburned on my face   i was assigned the task of standing outside directing the movers   initially i was to be inside directing movers to rooms   anyways, i didn't have a hat today as i always wear when i know i'm going to be outside    i didn't see how red i got until i went to the women's room tonite at work    lobster red   matches my shirt   i happened to wear a red/white striped shirt today    anyways, i worked all day at the church then went straight to the job   boy i'm tired    it still isn't as wearing as the p.o. was   but we had fun at the church today   the move went smoothly    now tomorrow we start the unpacking   of course dummy me asked the question "do you need me tomorrow"   goodness   so i'll be back there manana   then off to work again   i'm taking saturday off if i can   i'll do more unpacking next week....the weather is finally warming up and staying there   it was a beautiful day to move   perfect!

scary

so yesterday i ride my bike to Madrid   it's a back road there, scenic by-way    i got there in no time   had brunch and shopped for 1 1/2 hrs    then in lieu of coming back the way i came, i decide to head up to the edge of Santa Fe and take I-25    i wanted to knock off some fear of that stretch of freeway to albuquerque while riding my bike    well i'm doing pretty good, but half way down the interstate a woman runs me off the road, literally    she loyally @#$% pissed me off     she had just passed me in the left lane   i was going the speed limit in the right lane...didn't i mention this stretch of the interstate is like Indy 500....anyways, her lane got jammed and slowed them down    i'm just steadily riding my bike coming up on her right side    well being inpatient and not looking over in her blind spot, she decides to zip into my lane    i was in her back seat and i laid on the horn    she kept coming and all i could do was go off the road    fortunately there was plenty of pavement off road    it took her awhile but she realized what she did and finally got back in the other lane, allowing me to get back on the road    i was infuriated    i wanted to curse her out   damn Bitch!!!   i got rattled and it took me the rest of the day to relax from the incident    what pissed me off was that she had just passed me and she was doing an Indy 500    on this road i'll be doing the speed limit of 75, sometimes 80 and they still pass me like i'm standing still    God i hate that stretch of interstate!!!    well i'm not afraid of the interstate anymore, but i'll be damn if i'll be on that stretch anymore with my bike    !@#$%^ people!!!!!

 Happy Spring!

here's to a new life, a rebirth of our souls   a new beginning of peace, hope and joy....

hope your Easter was grand    it took all day to find a symbol i liked for the holiday   my blessings to the Christian world and what the Easter means to you    my blessings to the rest of the world who believe differently but are on our way anyways    the past 4days have been under weather   severely under the weather for me   caught a bug, maybe 2, wednesday evening    slept for 2days with no food   finally nibbled a bit yesterday and had a meal today    i feel better today than all the days    i even got out of the house for about an hour    other than that, i've been sleepin' or just starin' at the tv    i'm almost ready for a new day, a new dawn to be out & about in the world   hopefully tomorrow   but even illness is a gift   i felt a resurge in my faith this weekend   i even watched half of The Ten Commandments movie recognizing how far i've evolved from that way of thinking     there is still good messages within the Bible and Christianity, but there's far more to know   anyways, all is good    sometimes when i feel sick i swear my mind is being purged as well   a cleansing of sorts in order to get back to the true Spirit within each of us   Life is such a gift and i sometimes forget while being indulged in the mundane things of life   usually my illness will remind me of Life's value, but i also find it in others, thru your journals and friendships   goodness,   that is all God is...which is everyone and everything!

such a kind gesture...

this morn i went to breakfast at the Range Cafe    decided to sit at the bar in lieu of waiting for a table   it was just me wantin' sum biscuits & gravy   so i sit   then a couple minutes later a man comes sits next to me   well the waitress didn't see us arrive separately but as she was taking our orders, he told her separate tickets please   so we ate, chatted & had our coffee    she brings the ticket   sure enough she put the tickets together on one    goodness...  well the man insisted on paying it anyways   i asked him several times if he was sure   Yep sure enough   such a kind gesture is such a treacherous world we have at times....a wonderful act of kindness!

friday nite...

well it's friday nite and ain't nothin' happenin anywheres    anywhere i want to be other than here at home    it was another cold day here, back down in the 40s once again   but sunshine and heat are on the way again    it usually gets cold one more time before spring arrives permanently   i hope this week was the last of it, but if not, it won't be long   not a whole lot happenin' really   i applied for a couple part-time jobs needing a little dough after a major drop in my income the past 2 months   one drop was expected, the other showed up unexpectedly last week   something to do with my retirement plan at the p.o. and collecting social security simultaneously   IF i do a part-time job it will be briefly to pay a couple small loans off quickly before starting school   IF i get my back lump sum remaining from social security, a part-time job won't be needed but would be helpful a bit    it's taken awhile, but i finally realized today i can live without working again   my place is at the church apparently   i haven't been there much lately and i dropped in for lunch today   everyone missed me   i guess i've become a permanent fixture around there to my surprise   M was just telling me last sunday that i was a part of the energy there and more   it's taken all week, or longer, to realize this   never thought i'd be such a significant part with the community there    i've got a reputation, a good one, which precedes me and sooo many people know me more than i know them   well none of this was planned, but i'm grateful for their appreciation   me, i just think i'm a Speck in the universe playing some small role here for some unknown reason   just wantiing to do what i can, which seems so little to me, but not to others    this is such contrast from working at the p.o.   anyways, all is good   i realized today that the church is where i belong when i'm not at home, going to school or doing other life stuff like photography    so i'll continue doing whatever it is i do and hopefully make a difference in people's lives    sometimes i can't believe any of this   someone pinch me to let me know this is real    i still get the blues, like the past few days, but everything else is for the better   goodness, how blessed i am now   could things get any better....

I believe

the writing i wrote below was for my Spiritual Practice class project    last nite was the last class and our presentation    it was a wonderful class and i'm grateful i stuck it out and finished the class   so many times i wanted to quit only realizing my plate was too full therefore resistance to the class    it was a wonderful way to end the day after learning of the passing of a dear friend   i've known for over a week he would be leaving us soon and my heart has been heavy    yet thru his transition i truly realized that we are all spiritual beings experiencing the human life   Life is ongoing and there is no ending even in our transition to heaven    i will miss Carlos he was a blessing in my life   ....

I believe in God, the true parent, the Mother-Father Principle of all life.  This Supreme Intelligence lies silent and ever-present within me, within each of us, within everything.  It is the simplicity of a rose, the changing of leaves, lovers embracing, children laughing, the rising morning sun, the wind caressing one's cheek, fine wine & tobacco, coffe & conversation with a friend, God expressing in all things.  God is also Divine, love, passion, joy, wholeness, complete, perfect and more.  Whatsoever is in God, so it is in me.  I am all things and everyone in the Oneness of God.  I am an individualized expression of God, creating my life with Its power.  This poer is Thought.  Thought is the true giver of life that never dies, that can never be destroyed and it is the link to the Mind of God.  From Thought, the Source, I create through my mind and beliefs.  It is like a garden.  I am the garden, planting seeds of thoughts into the soil-which is Law-and creating my life.  I am an individual with free choice & will.   My will is God's will.  Of myself I can do nothing.  God and I are one...I believe in heaven that is withn me and outside of me.  The kingdom of heaven is within the reaches of my mind and yet lives beautifully outside of me through everyone and everything.  It exists here and now here on earth.  I believe the ultimate goal of life is to live in Oneness with God and all life.  That all seen and unseenn are my brothers and my sisters living harmoniously with all life.  I believe I am light, which is the true essence of love which is God, permeating eternally through all life.  I believe in nature for nature is a perfect mirror for all of us reflecting the purity of God.  Nature does not judge, does not curse, is unmolested, whole in its virtue exuberating pure love at all times which is God.  I believe in living the moment of Now.  A moment ago is gone, the next moment hasnt arrived.  Now is all there is with the simple treasures of life unfolding in the mment; the breath of life, a flower in bloom, a waterfall, coyotes howling, cuddling with my kiids and more, however God in its virtue expresses in the moment.  I believe in joy and love the true essence of God.  I believe the journey here is to know God in all forms, which is also to know self...self realized is God realized-the nature of all Life.

ride!!!!

having too much fun ridin' my bike   i finally got it out today   charged the battery last nite   dusted it off and hit the road    i didn't go anywhere but around town    and this is one big town, spread out for miles     it was a blast!   went up to the Harley shop to get a hot dog, but no dogs were available    as i window shopped and sipped a coke, i saw a woman that was in my riding class last year    she didn't finish the course, but she's now riding   i was sooo happy for her    we exchanged numbers and hopefully will ride together laterz     then i headed back home only to find myself racing with another young guy on his crotch rocket   i out did him   yep i was havin too much fun    i also kept forgetting to turn the fuel on, but hey it's been 3months since ridin'....lol    anyways, it was just the pick me upper i needed this week   nothin' like refreshin the soul on a bike...