17 this morn

i woke this morn to 17degree weather   yep it happens a couple times a year, but as i said it only last a day or two   it's suppose to be back in the 40s again tomorrow and the rest of the week.....in the meantime, i'm booked to fly back east, mideast i suppose   Ohio where the remainder of the family is located except for my brother in Oregon   i really didn't think i was going to make it there this time of the year, but it all came together after all   it'll be an interesting trip back since i haven't seen my older sister in about 20yrs or so, or her kids     i'll see if she's changed but from what i hear, she hasn't   no big deal to me   life is what it is and is not   weather permitting my father will drop in from Georgia   almost a family reunion minus a couple people   don't expect my brother and i still have one sister missing   i pray she returns home one day safe and sound   it'll be good to see the kids, my favorite part in returning home   much easier to have fun with than the adults   but hey, it's Christmas and my spirit will be soaring due to the holiday   nothing or no one can deplete me, or at least i hope   i'll be there a week, which is just about all i can last then it's back home to my kids and their wonderful gifts   there's no place like home which for me is now New Mexico...

34

current temperture, 34 degrees   Nippy but feelin' good...i've always loved 4seasons since a kid and growing up in it   yet since movin' to NM over 18yrs ago, i love the milder winters   mostly mild because it just plain doesn't get that cold very often   we might have a few more freezing degree weather and below this year but we average about 45-50 degree high on a daily basis   but i like it time to time when it drops below the norm   i love the crisp air burning your lungs and biting your hands   well occasionally i love it   at least here we don't have to endure it for long   not much more than a day or two at a time which makes winter a whole lot easier   and now that i don't have to deliver mail in this, i can enjoy it even more in the brief moments out there....

heineken!

nice cold beer!   just got home from a lavlight group meeting at church   it was good for me although i'm always reluctant to go   tonite's meeting help me take my mind off marijuana and drug users   this weekend a "potential" friend revealed to me she uses mj for medical purposes   she sent me a link to all the pros and cons about it   i read it and am still against it   what it did was bring up all those memories of loved ones who've used, maybe abuse, drugs and alcohol and was abusive   NO THANK YOU i wrote her telling her i don't desire to be around it    it just plain ain't fun being around those who use no matter what they say   i've experienced enough dr jekyl and mr hyde personalities by being exposing to them   Hard is such a soft word to describe them and their negativitiy they become    i just can't go there   i had already noticed a little negativity in her personality, now i wonder if this is the reason    whatever, do what's best for her i told her   she has her reasons, but don't light up in front of me.....anyways, after tonite's meeting which took my mind off all that, i came home to have a beer, JUST ONE, and relax     JUST ONE is all i ever do when drinking   just enough to relax a little   Life is too short to more damage than necessary   my brain is hangin on as it is minus the alcohol    tomorrow is another day, but for tonite, i'm chillin'

Happy Thanksgiving!

 

dec 4th

dec 4, 2006    the day my son leaves for Iraq   so  i learned tonite   i'm handling it better now than the initial time   i must have faith he will be fine, no matter what happens   it is in Spirit's hands now   i can't tell at the moment how he's really feeling and i'm not sure whether to ask or not   i gave him some advice tonite for he had yet to pick up my letter i sent over a month ago giving him that advice   so i'll talk to him a few more times before he leaves   once he leaves, i have no clue when i'll hear from him again   he's the worst letter writer ever   he just doesn't do it   maybe i can have contact via email   some GIs due have internet access over there   with Kyle being an MP, i'm not sure he'll have access   all i can do is pray and hope    he said he'll be there til next August   that is longer than six months as originally told   but i will say my prayers, light a vigil if i must daily, nightly   i know he will come home....

one sunday morn

Goodness,  it's been awhile since being here   i sit this morn in contemplation and then some   it's a beautiful morn   we're still having 60 degree weather here   beautiful weather for a bike ride   yesterday i went bike shoppin' again   i had yet to hit the Honda dealers   after doing a little research  i learned the Honda Shadow has good ratings  so i definitely had to check them out   Beautiful bike and fits me perfectly   after lunch with M the other day and our discussion on bikes, i sorted out what i wanted   a few days earlier i was at the Harley shop and fallin' in love with their bikes all over again   but i finally realized i don't want a big bike right now   bigger yes, but not Big as most of the Harley's are   i also sorted our what was my image really coming to a bike   i reflected on my cars and jeeps and yep a sportser was right up my alley   the Honda Shadow fits the sportser image to a T   i think this is my bike of the future, next summer   the only other hold out is that crotch rocket i'm absolutely in love with  the Suzuki GSX1300 -  it has a name but i don't know how to spell it-japanese name   anyways, i had to look at it again after the Honda dealer   i even asked Brian my service guy at this dealer a few questions about the bike   just as i had been figuring, a long haul on the crotch rocket is really not different than on a cruiser   one still needs to take your breaks and gas up    so now i have a few months to decide on which of these two bikes i'll buy   both are about the same price and will save me at least 8k from buying a Harley   sure i like the Harley image, but i want my own image and nothing too big for me   the Shadow and the Suzuki are perfect fits   a Big bike is really too heavy, too big i feel although i'm sure i could manage to ride one   maybe laterz   maybe not   but it was nice to narrow down my choices finally and know where i'm headed in a bike.....

now in the meantime, my crush on M has flared up again   this time for several days versus several hours   Goodness she's such a wonderful woman    my crush hasn't been this strong since i first discovered it a year ago   is it a season?...  

LMAO!!!

finally,  i'm laughing about working at the church, the people there and the whole situation   i'm laughing at the multiple personalities we have and how we all love each other while sometimes bitchin at the same time   i'm laughing at the apprehension i face for tomorrow (an interview somewhat) and the anticipated work there  i'm laughing again of how serious we take life sometimes, well maybe not life, but some of things we do in it   i'm laughing for yesterday is gone, tomorrow has not arrived, there's only now, and yet there's still tomorrow    i had no idea when i volunteered 3 months ago that i would be in the thick of things somewhat at the church   it's been an interesting adventure, it still is   but now i can laugh at myself in the midst of it and know everything is just fine just the way it is, and just the way it is not!    Laugh, it is the japanese symbol i have tattooed on my right hand   i must look at it from time to time and remember...Laugh, there's not enough of it in this world....

hope you voted today   i did   my motto:  if you don't vote you don't have a right to bitch about who's in office and what's happening with our govt!!!

laughter...

i got a good laugh over at one of Jimmy's journals   THANKS A BUNCHES GUY!!!   it's been too serious around here lately and the way the week looks ahead, i don't see much fun in it coming   is there a good comedy movie out? (i haven't looked at the movie list in ages)   anyways, i was thinking of the days ahead this week and my calendar is FULL!!!   again i see another 6day week at the church unless i can figure a way out of it   ok friday i'll be off   this is good news   hopefully saturday too   maybe i can skip wednesday, but i have an interview with a church member about assisting her with a church project she's doing right now   assisting her may take me away from the volunteering at the church, but i'll be volunteering for her for the church   we'll see   Goodness i'm worn out just thinking of the rest of the week    i had a meeting tonite after being at the church today   ok i'll skip class tomorrow nite   something's gotta give and lately it's been my house cleaning  granted i ain't the spit shine house cleaner, but i do like it cleaned   i'll squeeze that in tomorrow nite  ...right now i think i'll hit the sack   i'm tired just thinking of all this   dear God, please provide me some r&r this week....

7:30pm

well it's 7:30pm    feels like it should be 9:30pm   i'm ready for bed   why this day feels long i'm not sure    maybe because i was at work at 9am in lieu of my usual 10am   yep, nowadays that makes for long days   funny how six hours seems long compared to the 10-12hrs of yesterday   i've learned to enjoy my life of leisure   doing whatever i choose   and this time change   i always hate it   makes for longer days all by itself    anyways, guess it's time to curl up to another book, or actually get back to the one i'm reading   right after putting my pajamas on    in the meantime my kids lay at my feet with their first chew bone in awhile chowing down like there's no tomorrow   i don't think Boo knew what to do with it initially   so i must do the chew bones more often plus they'll help in cutting down the confetti parties they have around here   and for a little while i've been wondering why i have 2 small trash cans, one in the bathroom, the other right here next to my desk   because everything i put in them, Boo takes out...and i mean everything    so life here in my adobe bode is all nice, peaceful and cuddly   moments like these make days ahead such bliss...