the answer is here...

hmmm, where to start......it's been a week and it's only half way over   the past few days have been challenging   some due to my blues, the other due to worry about getting into the Art Center Design College    monday i found out that i didn't score so hot on the ACT, but hey i wasn't expecting to score high on it in the first place   then yesterday it slapped me in the face as to the costs of this college-sky rocketing to say the least    was it going to be worth it?    i examined and compared it to UNM, the costs, the curriculum and where was my  heart    anxiety to say the least   i broke down and had a cigarrette after going without for 3months    i had to let all this sink in    was this what i really wanted to do?    this morn, i recognized yes it would be worth it to me even though i'd have a hefty bill when it was all over    this has been my dream for soooo very long   decades in fact   i've never been able to let go of this dream to study photography and obtain my bachelor's degree   it just won't go away    for some of us, we live only once    for me, my life has had its challenges enough   now is the time to enjoy and pursue my dreams   ....so later today i get the call    the admissions counselor first asked if i still wanted to do this, before she told me whether i got in or not   i had called her about the costs yesterday   today i explained it all to her    my answer:   yes i still want to do this   it is worth it to me..."you've been 100% accepted into the college," were her words.....I'm IN!!!!