Friday, February 8, 2008

Val

ahhhh, alas it is friday   3days off and no worries in hand   this morn i dreamed of an old friend i haven't seen in 25yrs or so   so i got up and called her   she lives in Seattle WA   we chit chatted a moment and said good-bye   she's still being domestic Goddess while her wife works  they've been together longer than i've seen her   but anyways, after the call i sat and asked, has she really changed thru the years   in conversation it seems not but somehow i think Life must shape us and grow in sum small way at least   but some friends i think haven't changed much  staying in the same circles throughout their lives   maybe the truer reflection is i have changed MUCH since long ago   i've noticed how i've weaved in and out between passive and aggressive   humility, love and hate  how my horizons have expanded even in staying in one place these past 20yrs   it has been my mind that has been reshaped thru the illness, through my books, through my new friends at church   in my younger days i thought seeing the world was the way to new horizons   well now i know, it is through many things but especially through one's thoughts and how we perceive, react, engage, and learn from our moments of Now no matter we stay in one place or adventure thru travel   i recognize this not only with my chat with Val but also with an ex-girlfriennd of mine whom i recently had coffee with   we were together over 15yrs ago, and she still seems so simple just as way back when     there is beauty in the simple, a great reminder to enjoy life simply   yet , i hunger for more   i always have and i can't imagine ever being full    i am grateful for my path no matter how treacherous it has been at times   i know i can endure anything that comes my way   the future holds more paths to journey while i treasure the moment which i live in Now....

3 comments:

sunnyside46 said...

this was very thought-provoking....I always want to grow, yet I am also content.
I like to think I have grwon kinder over the years
Marti

ksquester said...

To be able to live in the moment and feel contientment is marvelous!   Through in some chocolate and that is BLISS!   Anne

jmorancoyle said...

    That is an outstanding outlook. I try to share it with you. Like someone said the other day, I am very thankful for the path that I have followed, but I wouldn't do it again for all the money in the world. I've had a lot to learn over the past few years. My sight hasn't been formed through my illness, but through my husband's. It's amazing what plans God has laid out for all of us.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay