friday nite...

well it's friday nite and ain't nothin' happenin anywheres    anywhere i want to be other than here at home    it was another cold day here, back down in the 40s once again   but sunshine and heat are on the way again    it usually gets cold one more time before spring arrives permanently   i hope this week was the last of it, but if not, it won't be long   not a whole lot happenin' really   i applied for a couple part-time jobs needing a little dough after a major drop in my income the past 2 months   one drop was expected, the other showed up unexpectedly last week   something to do with my retirement plan at the p.o. and collecting social security simultaneously   IF i do a part-time job it will be briefly to pay a couple small loans off quickly before starting school   IF i get my back lump sum remaining from social security, a part-time job won't be needed but would be helpful a bit    it's taken awhile, but i finally realized today i can live without working again   my place is at the church apparently   i haven't been there much lately and i dropped in for lunch today   everyone missed me   i guess i've become a permanent fixture around there to my surprise   M was just telling me last sunday that i was a part of the energy there and more   it's taken all week, or longer, to realize this   never thought i'd be such a significant part with the community there    i've got a reputation, a good one, which precedes me and sooo many people know me more than i know them   well none of this was planned, but i'm grateful for their appreciation   me, i just think i'm a Speck in the universe playing some small role here for some unknown reason   just wantiing to do what i can, which seems so little to me, but not to others    this is such contrast from working at the p.o.   anyways, all is good   i realized today that the church is where i belong when i'm not at home, going to school or doing other life stuff like photography    so i'll continue doing whatever it is i do and hopefully make a difference in people's lives    sometimes i can't believe any of this   someone pinch me to let me know this is real    i still get the blues, like the past few days, but everything else is for the better   goodness, how blessed i am now   could things get any better....