CELEBRATE!

Happy Birthday Ruby   100yrs old!   a member of our  church turns 100 this month  we celebrated with her at our service including cake    what a feat!

well i arrived back in church just in time for new classes to be registered   i asked Rev Patrick if it's ok to take more than one class at a time   one class is on Bible Wisdom, which isn't a credited class therefore i can take Roots, a creditied class simultaneously   both are rather long classes  10 weeks for Roots, 15 weeks for Bible Wisdom which we will use the Jewish bible i believe   anyways, great timing to feed my desire to know the Bible    i look forward to the classes and being at church again   i'd better get all the Potter books i can read before then   they start next month   i have a few weeks

...and how does Rev Patrick know i haven't been to church for awhile?  "a resurrection.." he said when we greeted...lol   well i'm Excited to be back there   i felt i went HOME today   i'm ready to celebrate my journey again   once and for all, i have arrived!

the bible....

good mornin' all....yesterday morn i began reading the bible   i've only read tidbits of paragraphs from time to time, but yesterday i decided to just begin reading the whole thing   my main focus is to know the teachings of Jesus so i start with the new testament   i began with Matthew and am still there   the book is what i've thought it to be for a decade now   a book of stories with great wisdom from its era   i discovered a tidbit of thought from our church as well   it follows:  Do we use it?  Of course.  Do we take it literally? No.....The Bible was written 2,000-3,000 years ago, by the Semitic people, for the Semitic people.  The Bible is a valuable and valid source of Truth when read and understood according to the authors' consciousness and heritage.  Truth is Truth, and the Bible must be read with an open mind, looking for the higher meaning in the stories, metaphors, and parables.  To fully understand the Bible, one must understand idioms and the psychology used by the men who wrote the book.  Yes, God did write the Bible, through the consciousness of human beings; therefore we must understand humankind to understand the book.

I desire to know the wisdom of the Bible and it's true meanings within the stories.  I desire to know and understand Jesus' teachings for what they really are.   Our Science of Mind book consists of Jesus' teachings, i finally remembered yesterday.  I know the Truth i'm looking for will take awhile to learn, but i'll perservere knowing i can better understand people in other religions a bit better.   Many have misinterpreted the Bible to some degree, but overall the wisdom of all religions have common threads...and we're all about knowing God.

also yesterday, i gave Jasmine and Charlie another bath   Kyle helped with Jasmine  she doesn't like baths yet so much   eventually she'll get accustomed, or at least i hope so   Charlie was a breeze to bath   like Max, he hopped into the tub and just stood there allowing me to bath him    after the bath everyone got a Milkbone treat, 2 actually.   the house is quieter nowadays without Sadie   i still miss her, yet still hurt & angry too    sometimes i desire to go to the pound to see her, but i know better not to do so   i know she'll find a home with her being the only dog   i underestimated her, but she's a good dog otherwise   one day....

this morn i sip my coffee contemplating on the work day   i know i should go in, but i find myself in a loving space this morn   a ten minute phone call with Rev Jennie yesterday reminded me of Love   i felt sooo much love after that phone call   is this what i've been missing not being at church?   is this why tears of joy roll down my cheeks in anticipation of actually going there?   is Love why i'm so overwhelmed at times while i do attend church?   such a simple answer as Love could be all that's been missing for me    well yesterdays' love has poured over into this morn   i don't want it to go away, yet it could do so easily once at work   i'm still contemplating   but for now i savor the moment  and maybe i can make it last all day long...

i don't always have to be right....

...and it is done unto you as you believe    for some reason these 2 thoughts spoke to me last nite as i laid down to sleep   i realized i've made some bad decisions in my life including recently   this summer has been a challenging one for me   a couple of belief systems arose that i didn't know i had    first for some reason unkown to me, i believe i'm a failure, therefore i keep creating failure    second, just recently  i realized i don't believe in relationships, romantic relationships that is, anymore    now how long i've been carrying these 2 beliefs within me i am stumped as to the answer   i have an idea about the latter belief, but the first i'm totally clueless   so i've been living a duality, which i think is normal   desire one thing, but believe otherwise   now the task is how to turn all that around   i know i'm not a failure, but i have been sabotaging a part of my life repeatedly for years (finances)    now i know i used to believe in Love,  i still do but not to the depth i once did    interesting i find myself with these    anyhows,  i meet with Rev Jennie next week for coffee   i haven't seen her in months and i can talk with her about this   it'll be great to see her and get back to church   i haven't been in about 2 months now, but my personal growth has not stopped   new pages have opened due to my challenges   now to continue forward and work to eliminate the 2 forementioned beliefs    what a life!   but Life is still Good....

i'm callin it funky

the day that is    it just feels funky for some reason   maybe because i overslept this morn and i've been out of sync ever since   and how do you teach a teenager to fix dinner having it ready when you get home   ok i must be dreamin, but tonite it was simply frozen pizza nite   just pop it in the oven and presto   seems simple enough to me   we're still waiting news on a job   in the meantime he's considering and looked into going active duty military  he's currently army guard but hasn't started his weekend drills yet   he's learning a bit from his mistake of quitting his last job   if only i could have thought quick enough and told him to return immediately   parenthood, wasn't ready for it   and occasionally there's the little things that are beginning to bug me   like not fillin up the water jug for the frig   and i hate his tv channel surfin   the radio is ok, but the tv   leave it alone!    patience   i must be more patient    other than that i'm pullin my hair out....lol    anything else i should be warned about teenagers?   please advise me....for now, back to Potter   i'm almost finished with the first book then will immediately begin #2.....

 

suppose 2 be

...hikin'    while i was doin my errand this morn, my nephew got himself a job interview at 3pm this afternoon    good for him, me too, but my hike is on hold....ugh....anyways, we're goin right after his job interview then droppin off another job application at The Buckle where i know a couple people including the manager   he'd better get a job for delaying my hike....

later same day

well it poured cats & dogs in our hiking area by the time we finished all interviews, so it'll be another day for hikin   tonight i'll curl up with Potter and pizza   will also do a bit of cleaning   he is all but hired on one job   he'll know for sure in a few days   as long as he got it, i'll be just fine   such is the day in the life...

anticipation

i sit eating my ice cream chocolate sundae with sticky chocolate fingers  my nephew has headed to a friends then a late nite movie, Unleashed   Jasmine lays at my feet and i think my other kids are finally accustomed to her enough that we can leave them all alone together   tomorrow i am definitely off from work and a particular trail calls my name   i'll be doing 1 errand, then off to the trail which i anticipate a 6hr hike  at least 3hrs up, then a similar time down   i'm starting from this side of the mountain and hiking to the top or as close as i can get   it's a trail i haven't completed, but there are quite a few i have completely done   i'm going prepared for change in the weather for it's still been raining here   unless it's cats & dogs, i'm hiking to the top   my house is a mess, but it can wait another 24hrs   if only my nephew had cleaned up a bit as he stated  but since i can't be a perfectionist with cleaniless here due to my dogs, a few more hours of a mess isn't going to hurt   i'm anxious as a little kid   tomorrow is too far ahead   i ache to be in the mountains...