Tuesday, April 12, 2005

a milestone...

a milestone   i've completed one this evening   i completed my foundations class at church and i'm exhilarated! ecstatic!   i am so excited, so much more elated, about completing this one class at church than completing my first class at UOP.   this class did sooo much for me   it brought me back to my spiritual journey once more   after my psychosis i no longer believed in the spiritual world   no longer believed it was real, but that was only my mind speaking   my soul knew better and my soul kept yearning to return to my spiritual journey   back to God   back to my spiritual journey which i trekked before my illness   my psychosis was my psychosis but entwined in it was my spiritual thinking and the delusions it created also created a mess of my beliefs   such irrational thoughts and feelings   reality wasn't what it seemed......but now,   now i am on my journey again, One with God,  whole spiritually no longer filled with holes in my soul, my spirit questioning, doubting, wandering like a lost soul     God it's taken 2years since first stepping into my church to get back to my wholeness spiritually   I am life again   I am ALIVE again!   and God does it feel great to be on the trail again, learning, growing, changing with life again spiritually    each of our paths our unique for God is unique to each of us and words fall far short for description of how I truly feel.....it's good to be Home again   Home a place within myself connected to the Oneness of God, Life, nature and all that is...now i will rest, absorb and process again all that i've learned in the last 13weeks    it's been a wonderful trek these last few months ...and this is really only the beginning  ...alot of questions answered...alot more to learn and grow from...i've met some wonderful people too in this experience who i get to see on sundays , forming new relationships, new friendships.....this is a treasure that will be forever with me...Thank You God...Thank you kbear!  Thank You Rev Patrick and Elke!  Thank you Pod!  and Thank You to all the other wonderful people in this class for sharing!  Life is eternal and so are you!   And so it is...

1 comment:

delela1 said...

Happy for you.  The soul and spirit will always know which path to take, but sometimes we just don't hear the whispers.  :)  :)
Dona