Sunday, April 24, 2005
Taking a risk!
i lay awake relishing in the possibilities of what may come it's been years, six and more, since being in a relationship it scares the hell out of me yet who knows what will happen does not matter.......my mind wanders....i'm taking a risk at this moment i haven't in awhile my mind wandered to my mental illness and i remembered at times i sooo desire for people to understand how far i've come and where i've come from so here is the risk i'm giving you a hint of my illness i won't tell u mydiagnosis but i will reveal some hint have you ever seen the movie "A Beautiful Mind" w/Russell Crowe? i'm not schizophrenia as he was, however, i experienced some of what he went thru in the movie his 'shadows' never went away my medication takes all of that away and more it's only depression that i still experience despite medication....it's been a long journey home. P.S> all this means is i'm officially 'crazy'=LOL i'm fully sane with my meds, don't worry please!