my eyes are sore    my mind is blurred or is it the other way around my first paper for my class was due tonight, 1000 words, well 900-1000 i  just made it  have you ever had a paper due and your mind is blank    blank to what it is you're suppose to write blank as to what your going to write  empty  full of cobwebs and just not clickin like it should  it took me til 10pm last night to figure out what it was i'm suppose to write   i work saturdays and these long papers are no easy feat yet to do   work wasn't happening today   and it still took me hours to pull it together   having a direction  yet my brain would not flow the words onto the paper   but the past few days have been eye openers ever since Tj mentioned that the criminal justice system does nothing for the victims and favors the criminals   i hadn't ever thought of that perspective, but she's right for the most part    my reading material enlightened me more than the CTU classes as far as criminal justice    i haven't thought much about our judicial system for a very long long time   this is going to be a great learning experience studying criminal justice even if i don't get the opportunity to use the degree due to my disability     life, so much to learn  not enough time, lol...........i can relax a little for the next 2days , until the next week of class begins on tuesday   it was tough gettin in the groove this week-ugh!..........now the good news    i'm going hiking with Russ manana provided the weather hold up    Russ is a potential relationship beginning   will develop our friendship first then go from there    he's high energy which should offset my mellow self    at least it will feed my youthful spirit although my body says otherwise    some of the men i dated my age were 'old' already    they were dragging me down   i don't want to ever feel 'old'    wise yes, but my heart remains young.........more on the date laterz  (i'm thinking this might be a date anyways)....well may the sun warm your face and the wind be at your back  may God guide you to your best...