before dawn

  Under by~dechobek

good mornin   it's dark outside   pitch black   i've awakened before dawn for some unknown reason   haven't been up at this hour in quite some time   think i'll take a peek at the sunrise, if it should do so   forecast is cloudy today and i hear the wind howlin'  it's goin 2 be a cool morn at the state fair then, IF we go   Marsha stopped by the store yesterday while i was workin'   i hadn't gotten a hold of her in the past couple days and she stopped by to tell me she's ok   turns out her & her daughter (Madison's mom) had a falling out   it wasn't pretty   so needless to say, Madison won't be joining us for the fair   i'm a little disappointed but understand the situation wholly and what the disagreement was about   anyways, so Marsha had also mention goin to church since Rev Judy, our interim minister now, will be speaking  Rev Judy used to be the minister there about 15yrs ago or so   she's a wonderful woman, but there will be other times she speaks  so we may not go today....

in the meantime, life at the store was at its usual   the woman i work with now works sometimes and other times doesn't   she too takes a half a dozen cigarette breaks and talks to her boyfriend lots as well   another reminder one reason i'm leaving   then we got the phone call that SID was out too yesterday  the major reason i'm leaving   one co-worker begged me yesterday to stay and work one day a week so they wouldn't lose me  God NO!!!   she knows i'm a GOOD worker   i know i'm a good worker   this i have learned about myself   also the reason the church wants me   but there's no way in hell i'm staying at that store  it all hit me in the face the other day at once, in lieu of bits & pieces,  staying there is not an option!.....hurry up tuesday, the day i find out for sure when i start at the church!

now, if all goes well, i'll have my dinner with Jesse tonite at Red Lobster   with Marsha's 9/11 day, something about her not having cash for the fair and her ATM card not workin  i told her i had it   but i also owe Jesse a dinner so i had planned on paying for his dinner tonite   i also need dog food   it'll all work out, even if i have to wait a day or two for the dinner   i WILL get my Red Lobster dinner in soon   it's all good   Life happens like this sometimes   so i just go with the flow   so that will be the day today, goin with the flow   maybe by the end of the day i'll have photos from the fair   It's a great day already in my mind and heart   it can only get better...