cool nite

thursday nite   just got home from class   it's prac preview   3 classes of it, then we actually start the class   it's a good class  interesting to say the least   it challenges my thinking regarding "spiritual knowledge"   but this is Science of Mind, our philosophy at our church   the class will be a challenge for me and i like challenges   before i go to bed i need to dig out some old notes from a previous class just to refresh myself on spiritual mind treatment (our affirmative prayer technique)   as i sat in class, i asked myself do i really want to do this   whether i want to or not, i'm doin' it   it's 36weeks long  minus 3 holidays and i'm in it for the long haul   anyways, interestin'...right now i'm questioning but that's the norm for me  i question until i know the truth for me  it's all good

in the meantime, before too long i will no longer have to deal with beer runs at the store   i've got the job at the church beginning the first of October   i do training for it next week sometime   it'll be good   or at least i hope so   i am anxious to leave the store although one small improvement has been made lately   well maybe i shouldn't call it an improvement considering   the boss put the order out to stop selling alcohol to the homeless man that only comes in to buy his Importers Vodka daily   it's in hope he'll move on   the boss also called the cops on the other homeless guy and he's no longer allowed near the store   he's gone   he was really no problem to me   but for some unknown reason to me the boss got tired of him too   i pray one day these two guys, and all homeless people, find their way to a better life...

now an update on Jesse   he appears to be gettin weaker   he keeps pushing himself to get up and get goin   he doesn't want to be bound to the bed for he knows once he does that, it's all over   he's fightin it in my perception which is understandable   i just don't know how much of a fight he has left   he did see a kineasology (sp?) doctor today and got some other herbal medication to help   let's see what happens from there   gotta see him soon   i was hopin to see him today, but it just didn't come together   he didn't sound too good when i first spoke with him, but as the day progress his spirit was up   he's got one hell of a strong will   who knows how much longer he'll will himself to live    he's last much longer than anyone expect   who knows he could pull out a miracle   i've been strugglin with the fact he'll be gone sometime soon   i know only his body dies and he moves on to another of God's mansions  but it doesn't make it any easier sayin good-bye   he's been a blessing to me these past few months   he's done me a lot of good just hanging out with him   a little healing of my soul and helpin me face my own fear of death   my views of life arent' the same as they used to be, but i haven't totally gotten to the greener pastures   Bless Jesse for the gift he is to me...