happy birthday 2 me..

   monday monday    easy like sunday mornin....anyways, i took it easy today   needed to rest although i almost rode my bike up to Bandelier   by the time i got to Cottonwood Mall, i was tired   so i decided not to take that ride today   on the way there i stopped by and talked to the boss   he'll work me 4days for now, but will split them up for me so i don't work more than 2 in a row   yesterday reminded me of why i'm medically retired   so anyways, this means i get this sunday off which happens to be my birthday  YAY!!!    and i'll be going to the New Mexico State Fair with Marsha, Lil Madison and Diana (Madison's mom)   as i was contemplating going to the fair by myself to take photos of people, events and animals, i thought of Madison   why couldn't i take her photo of petting those goats and other small animals set aside just for kids   so i asked Marsha for my birthday present, let's all go   so we're goin'!!!   i still may need to go by myself to take photos of other events, IF i decide to do so, but my birthday is set   Marsha wants Madison to get in her first rides on the kiddy rides at the fair   so i'll take loads of photos of my favorite subject=Madison   who know's maybe i could win her a toy (not likely)   so i'm excited about the day to come....in the meantime, Jane from church called checkin in on me   she had heard i withdrew my application for the Night Angel position   i explained why  6days a week there was waaaaaay too many   she understood perfectly   she's steppin down from some of her volunteering there as well   i love my church and the people there, but we could make a soap opera out of it sometimes   Goodness......now, about Jesse   i had to call Sandy to check on him   he's slowin' down quite a bit   he's pretending everything is ok with everyone, except Sandy sees him in the bed a lot, how long it takes him to do things, and he's using his oxygen more often   so i'm making it a pact to call him daily just to day hello   and i'll make sure i' see him once a week or more if possible even if we just sit and have coffee    he did call me back today after i called him a few times the past couple days (he's not taking many phone calls right now either)   i told him i love him and i'll see him soon   i know he's tryin to be mr macho thru all this, but i'd like to let him know he can humble himself and ask for help   he took off towards Santa Fe this morn and didn't tell anyone where he was going    i had to call Sandy this afternoon to make sure he got home safely   he was by 2pm  back in bed restin'  thank goodness   this isn't easy, but i'm learning from him a little more about illnesses and death   i like his perspective on things  i just wish him the best   gotta spend more time with him before he goes....