Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Chaos is good!

....and so my intuition told me this morn   i even discussed it with Rev Jennie and she agreed   this is when creativity is around   so now i perceive my life as chaotic   well my finances are anyways   and i discussed with Rev Jennie why we sabotage ourselves then feel like failure   something i already knew but thought she might shed some more light on the matter   we have a belief(s) within ourselves which keeps us setting up the same things over and over again   we first must become aware that we have a pattern  then look inside ourselves for what our beliefs are   she recommended writing them down   complete an unfinished sentence regarding the subject   allow it to flow from you  it will show itself    after discovering what we're stuck in, we then change our thoughts/beliefs regarding it by consciously working on it   so, i have some work to do   i know my financial beliefs originate in childhood   i need & want to get to the bottom of it all so i won't do this again   i deserve happiness no matter what form it comes in    i started actually workin on it a bit while driving home making some notes   this will be a good challenge   something worthwhile to work on other than work....

in the meantime, back at the ranch   Charlie is finally playing with Jasmine   she's been barking up a raucous the past few days and Charlie finally returned the favor   she didn't know how to take it at first   then he got her into a tug of war over a toy bear   he was so gentle with her    tha'ts my Charlie, my Not ferocious pitt   they've been playing ever since   as she gets bigger i figure Jimmy may play with her too   maybe Max, but Max is the oldest and really mellow   for now it's nice she has a playmate other than my feet...

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