monday morn

it's monday morn and i swear it gets tougher to be motivated for work   i know it's time for vacation, but i'm out of vacation leave   even knowing i only have a few months retirement does not motivate me to be there   depression is depression and it engulfs me this morn   i will get to work but when is the question  and then for a moment i think not   it will all work out this morn   maybe if i just get myself moving    in the meantime, Jasmine has been attacking my feet this morn with her very sharp teeth   little munchkin!   ....yesterday was a chillin day   other than making it to church, i sat watched 'Deep End of the Ocean', Tiger playing golf (the only time i watch golf), and some mens volleyball (another favorite sport)   then i read several chapters of Potter's second book completing half of it   my heart, my mind, my soul is ready for a new life   it hurts too much to work at the po nowadays   it's a constant battle just to be there   being late makes for a long day and the conflicting attitudes from management aggravate the situation   some like me, others hate me   o well, life goes on   not here to make everyone happy and no way anyone can do that   it's none of my business what they think of me to begin with....the morning air is cool and my nephew left the swamp cooler on all nite   i woke up freezing   so now i'll go warm up with coffee and contemplate the day...