Sadie

jasmine lays at my feet while another one of my pack is no longer here  i realize life has some really tough decisions to be made   was i so fried from work yesterday that i couldn't see other possibilities   in the midst of a fight and my anger i made a snap decision   i don't know if it was the right one, but then again i think i did   i just don't like the decision i made  maybe i made the wrong decision years ago  maybe i didn't make any wrong decision   i'm perplexed   i don't know what happened to my Sadie girl, if anything at all, where she became so vicious    i hope to have the answer some day even tho she's no longer with me  ...i hurt, i'm angry, i missed the boat somewhere when it came to her    i still don't believe i gave her up   i suppose i'll be numb for awhile   but for now she's gone...