short note

this evening i talked with Sam, my ex-husband    we were married way back when   it was purely a marriage of convenience while we both were in the young and in the military   no consumation of the marriage  just friends   actually he's gay and has been with Chuck for 25yrs now   Happy Anniversary guys!   anyways, Sam i stayed married for about 10yrs to the day   we married on Halloween since it wasn't a real marriage only beknownst to us and a few friends    i hadn't talked to him since over a dozen years ago, before my illness hit    he lives in Seattle and i called again tonite   i had called a few months ago when i also got in touch with Val   just no answer and i didn't leave a message not knowing if it was still his number   anyways, it was great to talk a few moments with him    when i visit Washington state again, i surely will stop by and see the two of them    i was watching the Seattle Seahawks football game when i thought of him   the game was in Seattle and i always think of my family of friends up there anytime i see Seattle on the tv    all goes well with my retirement, i'll be headed back to Washington next year sometime for a 2week vacation    i still get homesick for that place and people after being gone for over 20yrs now   my first place i was truly happy!   anyways, it'll be great to see Sam and visit awhile.....

in the meantime, back home on the ranch.....Kyle called a few moments ago   he's on his way home from El Paso from visiting Nicole   they are ok for now but he definitely has grown from this weekend   for the past month, i've been plugging Kyle's ears with words to take care of himself no matter what the relationship with NIcole   to do what he wants for a career    he finally realize he needs to do just that for him and his child on the way    i'm so proud of him   means he's been listening and thinking about what i said    he also stood up to Nicole regarding Jasmine   Jasmine is really his dog   she's sooo bonded to him   so i told him he should put his name on her registration papers especially since he's taking care of that, all her shots and food   She's his dog!    he told Nicole he was going to do just that   she wasn't too happy about that, but she eventually chilled out on the matter   he even offered to repay her the $250 to her which she paid for Jasmine  ...anyways,   Kyle has grown some and i realized he has taken in some of the things i've commented on    i just articulate my thoughts, but leave it totally up to him what he does with the information, if he does anything with it    that's all i can do and really don't desire to do anything else   just be here for guidance, wisdom , support and love for him    he can learn and decide his own choices   i wouldn't have it any other way....anyways, he's on his way home then we'll grab a bite to eat   i really didn't know i'd be having such a relationship with my nephew when he showed up   it is good   i'm happy i'm making a positive influence on him   he's a sweet guy...