Friday, August 29, 2008

a better day

   Yesterday i dared to struggle. Today i dare to win.-Bernadette Devlin.

this morn i sit waitin' on George   i talked to him over an hour ago   we're suppose to hit the trail before i go to work, but not before gettin' coffee   i wanted to be on the trail startin' in 10mins   i have to work today   i wanted a longer hike than we've been doin'   i pray it works out, but i HATE being rushed about anything anymore   he was anxious for me to call this morn at 6am, now he's draggin ass   o well....

anyways this morn i'm feelin' better than yesterday   maybe the wine helped last nite   i finally got to bed early and fell asleep right away i found the above quote to start my day   i've been stressin' lately about the Grand Canyon trip   feelin' way out of shape and it's goin' to be real tight financially, but i'm confident we'll get there regardless   i've been workin thru my money issues  the fact that i keep gettin myself in debt needlessly   it's a pattern, but i finally got to the root of the problem deep inside me, just a couple days ago   i feel i need to find that belief(s) within, before i can truly make a change on the outside   feelin' worthless has been part of the problem   spending money to make myself feel better has been the solution   i know there are other ways to feel better   i also realized yesterday while riding my bicycle that excercise no matter how small makes me feel a whole lot better and stronger in the long haul    i'm more disciplined with my money matters and other things in my life   it's like i fell more apart since retiring and hadn't been able to pull myself back together   finally i recognize what it's going 2 take   one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, i'll get it done   it's an uphill challenge, but one i know i can defeat   i've done it before, i can do it again   and it can be turned around in a matter of a few months.....anyways, gotta run   George is finally here....have a great day!   go out to win!


robinngabster said...

Hope you had a wonderful hike and had enough time to soak in the beauty around you.

jmorancoyle said...

    You're right. You can do almost anything you put your mind to. The questions is, though, are you making enough money to do this, particularly now when everything costs so much more.
P.S.: As far as feeling better about yourself? You're a good person. You're an intelligent person. You do well for yourself and your many, many friends. You deserve to nurture a better opinion of yourself.