Sunday, June 19, 2005

thinkin'

well another day, another dollar and then my car pooped out on me   there was a time in my life i thought i had it all together   since my illness i feel i don't have anything 'together' but maybe that's the way life is meant to be   reading other j-landers journals and their struggles reminds me i'm not alone   sometimes i think there are some people with no problems   i suppose we all have our problems but it sure is lonely sometimes being in the midst of them   i fret, i worry, i get angry i suppose when mine arrive   but then again i'm sure others do also   i really don't like them for i had more than enough of those damn problems through childhood and strive for perfection   i dont' do so as often as i did in my younger days, but my heart still gives it a try   being older and wiser, i know all will work itself out, but at the moment my patience is being tested for sure  i am fine, and will be fine but must remind myself of that   i just want to be one happy person all the time and that's not realistic   but there will be simpler days ahead for there will come a time when problems are less or less bothering to me   this is my strife for now   i count the days for those moments arrival and see light at the end of the tunnel   for now there still is some darkness, but i will light a candle and say my prayers   'time to remember that time in september...when all was mellow'    or the song goes something like that   put a little music on and do cleaning and my home project for the day    Life is really good in spite of the troubles....

2 comments:

jmorancoyle said...

    Dr. Phil said something that struck me. That's when you overcome one set of problems, what you're really doing is trading that set for another. No one gets through this life unscathed. Happiness is a state of mind that only you can control.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/JMoranCoyle/MyWay

lacaza3 said...

Life doesnt stop for no man or woman huh...How is that for prolific<sp?>saying...
Hope all is well with you....Summer been busy with the kids but I havent forgotten you
Donna In TEXAS